heeey u guys....
its been a more than a week
i know i know wayed 6awlt o mashy post bas madree shu feyaa
i used to have this extra energy that would keep me going...
bas madree whats up with mee
sooo nt in the mood for anything
this week ia full of extra work in school...tests , tests ,and more tests
so i really dont have the time
and considering me as a "blog addict" this is so not normal
i usually write everyday a page or two
bas i didnt even write one word ....
7ataa i usually comment back..
mafya to do that too
and sometimes i open the blog
to read other stories that iv been following from the begining
thats all...
im soo lazy and moody
soo much has been happening
and i gotta deal with all of it
you might not understand
but its the matter of time and u will
hmm its what making me think
and consider my choices
lol i know this sounds so awkward to u guys
elmuhm maybe next week
maybe
who knows?
adree u want to know whats gna happen..
dont worry soon
i know your enjoying the story so far...
you will know soon how it ends...
im trying so hard you guys cuz mabaa aza3elkm
soo bare with me my dear readers...
a7ebkum alll
i hope no hard feelings
sorry Tutii and Springy 7abaaybi...
Hamda my sweetie
and allll my other gorgeous readers;**
Monday, February 22, 2010
Sunday, February 14, 2010
8i9at '3araam *9*((SPECIAL POST;**))
WOOHOO !
HAPPY VALENTINES 7ABAAYBIII ;*******
kel senaaa o entooo b5aaair yaa a7laa readers !
JAHZEEN FOR TODAYS POST??!!
ITS A SPECIAL POST FOR ALL YOU READERS OUT THERE<3
3aam yedeed...
w senaah ydeedah...
w 7ub yedeeed....
3asaa allah yes3edkum ento o 7abaaybkm;***
i adore this song and beeen waiting soooo long to add it on this amazing post!
2hdaaa to all you people celebrating this day....
kl 3am w enta el7ub,,temer esneen w entaa el7ub 3asaa allah la yefrgna~
Enjoy!
-----------------------------------------------
PREVIOUSLY
He started to speak again
And I wished the same
For the first time in my life I wanted that
“ana…
ana abaach to be mine Meera”
---------------------------------------------------
I was sitting right next to him
Kint bjaabltena
But my eyes and thoughts were far far away....
B3eed 3an hathe el3alam....
I lost my 5 senses...
Just like that....
Those words made me loose all my feelings....
He was still looking at me...
Bas I didn’t realize that...
I was still in shock....
I didn’t realize what that breathtaking voice of his just said….
He stayed quiet and didn’t interrupt my thoughts…
It took me a while to take all this in…
He wants me to be his?
Yebani 7agaa?
Ana Meera akoon maltah?
Not for anyone else… bas 7agaa?
Bas kaif?
Kaif beyaany ana?
Kaif ana a8bal fe hatha el shay?
7asaait a rush of answers racing to the top trying to be picked
I didn’t want to pick
I dint want to think
I didn’t want to believe this was reality....
Meera’s POV now…
Mat5ayalt 3emry akoon attached to someone
And expected to love and loved in return
This in not who I am…
I’m the type of girl that backs off whenever someone gets too attached
I wasn’t the kind that could handle these things
I felt it was better this way…not to get hurt
That was my main goal
Ena I never get heartbroken or hurt by someone close to me
That was me
But this was different somehow
First I liked how he looked at me
Then I liked how I thought of him
But then I wanted to be with him
I was accepting everything from him
I gotta tell you though
I am the kind of girl that thinks a million times gabl matsawee shay
Magoolkm im soo straight
Bas I really do have limits
Ya3nii ma7eb ayeeb elramsh 7ag 3emri
I have all the doors open for me in Abu Dhabi
But I never dare going through them meny weldarb
A7term 3emry
That’s when things go wrong
You see others doing
And then you start wanting the same
You say to urself…fe shay esma logic
Enah there’s a first time for everything
No matter what the consequences are
You want to try new things
New experiences
A new way of living.
This is what happened to me
After seeing him
After remembering the past
After talking to him
And ..After experiencing new feelings towards him
I wanted to go forward with this
I wanted to keep feeling these things
I wanted to be close to him
Forever.
Back to the story
I pushed away all what was going on in my head...
And focused on one thing...
One thing that I was anxious to try...
One thing I didn’t think about a million times as usual...
One thing that was every girl’s fantasy to have...
One thing that makes you forget enah gravity exists....
It was falling in love…
He was still quiet...
My eyes caught him as he sucked in his lips …
He seemed troubled,
Worried,
Anxious.
Now I didn’t want to think
I wanted to follow my heart for the first time..
Hoping it was the right thing
What if this all goes wrong?
What if he hurts me?
What if this is all a lie?
What if nothing goes right?
Stop
No more thinking
No more what ifs
I choose him
I want to go through this
For now at least…
At last..
Silence…
I took advantage of the moment...
My hands reached for his face slowly...
It was tiny compared to his face....
I touched the lower right side of his face...
He slightly shivered as my cold hand touched his jaw line...
This was extreme for me..
This was over the top…
My heart was speeding now
I didn’t know what to do next
His eyes was burning through mine
I could feel his skin forming a slight smile
He liked this
He liked feeling this way too...
I slipped my hand from his face and locked it with my other hand and started to fiddle with it...
It was an awkward moment....
I was just about to say something....
We opened our mouths to talk ...
I closed it as soon as I saw his open...
We both laughed at what just happened....
After a few seconds we started to talk...
“hehe you go first”
“umm..la you”
I was turning red
My head dropped to the floor
“laaa laa ladies first”
He tilted his head down to look at me
I raised my head shwyh not knowing he was looking at me
My eyes caught his
I started to blush all over again
Uhhhhh stop it!
Weeeh galbii beywagf
I don’t want to get paralyzed all over again...
I sighed as I raised my head and looked the other way and smiled
I was laughing from the inside
I knew what he was doing
I could feel his gaze burning through me
I turned at looked at him
“hehe sho feech?”
“mashay”
Lafeet wayhee 3anah
7aseet I was gna burst out laughing
He knows I get annoyed when someone keeps staring at me!
I was starting to move a lot now
I played with my hair
Then started to bit my lips from nervousness
And then I crossed my legs to sit in a lady like position
I forgot about the cut
“Huh! aaa7”my voice was low but it sting so much!
“hehehe stop moving” he wrapped his arms around my arms trapping me from moving
I froze.
He tilted his head so he can see me better
“Okay?”
“Ok” I said randomly
“ahidich?”
“t’hedni”
“hahaha that’s not what I asked”
“adree”I said shyly
“Tadreen sho?”
My face turned blank
Sho eygool hatha?
I’m totally lost
Omg fashlaa!
Sho asawii now.....
“hehe… Meera ”
“labeah” I said softly and smiled
I watched as his face lightened up as I said that
“labaach galbii”his voice was sooo dreamy and manly
allah 3alaaik .....
leyaaa tekalamt ma7laaak....
nabraaat 9oootk...
tesha'3l el shoog feeny.....
I watched as his left eye winked at me...
2weeeh !
I seriously can’t talk now
Actually I don’t want too!
I could just sit here all day staring at him
Aaah a7ss Goosebumps everywhere
7atta sha3ar yambi wegaaf.....
He had a huge smirk plastered on his face now
“laish teste7een miny?”
I didn’t want to lie
I wanted to say the truth
But it was such an embarrassing question
I was forced.
“maste7ee”I managed to say after a few seconds
“walla?”He was being sarcastic
“Yeah”
I was happy I won this conversation...
Until he started talking again after a few seconds
“Ok 3eyal”I could hear the thrill rushing through his voice
“6al3eeny”
I looked into his eyes straight away...
Without thinking about it...
I looked into his eyes...
I saw warmth...
I saw joy....
I saw love.
I was on fire now
His eyes were doing this to me...
Magdedaart at7amaal 3yoonah....
They were so mesmerizing ....
Chee it’s like you’re on a roller costar
You’re heading towards this deadly deep drop
And you want to keep watching ...
But at the same time you’re too frightened about it!
That’s what was happening to me....
I wanted to keep my eyes on him....
If I could I would’ve done it all day...
But it was hard.
I dropped my gaze
“chefty” he laughed at me
I was blushing more after this
He took my hand in his and looked at me
I shivered from his touch
He felt that
“lat5afain”his voice was so warm and serene
“You trust me don’t you?”
He had the innocent look painted on his face
“haih”
“inzain bagoolich shay madam were cool now” he was so excited
“hehe gool”
I slightly moved away from him to make space between us so I could see him better
“T7eede-“he stopped and looked at me in surprise
“hehe sho? ”I didn’t know what was going on
His eyes were wide
I thought something happened
“laish troo7en b3eed?”
“Umm I just wanted a better view walla” I flashed him my pearly white teeth
“Meera com’on” he was disappointed now
He sighed and continued talking
“tebaain tza3leeni entee?”He had a sad expression on
“laa never”I was shocked
“hehe you know ente no matter what you do musta7eel az3al minch”
still smiling
I started to remember us as kids again
I remembered when we played by the shore
And by the swings
I got hit by memories from every side
Omg true
Machid ze3al miny!
He sighed again and looked my way
“T3arfeen how long I’ve waited to be this close to you again?”
“Really?”I was surprised
“hehe ..laish chee wayed metfaj2ah”
His hand reached to mine to pull me back in my old position
“mat9adgeeni?”
I nodded and smiled
I don’t know etha what he’s saying is all true
Since when o hewa chee eyfaker?
It feels weird now knowing how he feels about me
I don’t know what to expect from him
But still I should believe right?
He watched my face expressions
I wasn’t satisfied by what he was saying yet
“hmm….enzain gimmi your hand I want you to feel something”
He reached for my hand gently and placed it on his chest exactly where his heart was
“sho elsalfah hehe”
“shhh listen”
We both stayed quiet for a while
Aaah galbaaah!
Laish eydig bser3aa
Is he ok?
Its beating too fast !!
Besmella allah yefe’6a
He watched me as I started to panic
“haha choofy sho saweeti eb galbii”
“ana asawi chee?”
“ma7ad ‘3arich ya 2meerty”
I stared to blush
“3aan”
“mayest7oon”
“hehe enshalla”
He kept his eyes on me...
Like I was the only person in the world he doesn’t want to loose...
Like he never wants me to be away from him...
Like I was the drug that made him keep surviving...
I was making his heart race like that...
I was doing that to him...
This is how he feels when im close...
This is what I do to him when I close....
And that’s what he did to me....
Whenever he was close...
He made my heart speed up ....
He made me stop thinking....
He made me forget all the misery....
All the pain...
And concentrate on him...
Just him...
He just kept watching me
For the first time he just watched
Didn’t say a word
It’s like kaan ey7awel eyshab3 3yoonh miny...
It’s like kaan ey5aaf aroo7 3anaah o hewa ba3dah maresamny fe 3aglah....
O galbah....
O 5ayaalh....
Kan bas yeba ey6ale3ni...
I didn’t need to speak ....
I didn’t have to say a word....
He knew how I was feeling....
He knew whatever he was feeling I was feeling too....
After a few minutes he started to talk…
“Meera…”
I felt goosebumps every time those lips said my name
“na3aam?”
“tadreen ente mkaanich wain?”
He smiled at me now
I shook my head saying no
His hand touched his chest
“da5l galbii….entee nab’6 galbii”
“jawbeeny…”he was smiling at me now
“el galb ey3eesh bdoon nab’6ah?”
“laa”I said shyly
“kaif ey3eesh el galbi 3eyal?”
“etha kan fe nab’6”
“o entee sho?”
“hehe..”I started to giggle
This conversation was starting to make me nervous
And my answers were so funny
“hehe yalla gooleely… entee sho?”
“ana nab’6ah”
His eyes were wide now
His smile was taking all his face
“hehe o wain mekaanch?”
This was very entertaining to him
“hehe enta ta3ref”I was blushing
“laa ma3arf”he was sarcastic
“yalla you tell me”
“mabaa hehe”
He put his hand on the tip of my chin and turned me his way because I was now looking down as usual
“wain mkaanich?”He was smiling softly
Aaah ma7laat that smile
Walla it lightens up my day
I was smiling back but my eyes staring down
After a few seconds I managed to finally say it
“fe gaalbik”
Kl 3aaam wntaa ya 7abeeby ya '9yaa 3ainnyy .. yakl 3aamn jdeed ygaabl sneenyy .. mnkthr ma a7s b- innk g63tnn mnny..hanaait nafsy gabl la inta t'haneenyy ..
kl3aam wntyy 7abeebat galby w 7byy kl 3am wnty ya galby agrab l-galby .. yarwa3 hadya wahabha ldnyty raby w araag w a7la jamaaln shaafita 3ainyy ..
hal 3am bajma3 njom il lail yal '3aaly baktbah ismk mn awal 7arf litaalyy warsam baha 9oortn mafargat baaly wa7adth lk gmar laily bain kafainyy ..
wana l3yoonk worood il 7b banthrha barsm baha galby w galbk wa9awrha b7roof ismk .. bazaynha wa36rha wagool A7BK kthr mantii t7beenyy ..
fdaait galbk ya a'3la 7b y7yaabii.. yagrab l3aainy mn jfoony w ahdaabiii.. ya awal a7baab 3mry w a5ar a7baabii.. yakfeeny a7yaa il 3mr wyaak yakfeeennnyy!!!
Wana bdoonk sneeen il 3mrr mabeeha mabeeha .. mat5ayal a7ya bdnya inty mo feehaa .. banwar 7bk azaynha wa7aleehaa .. wamd jsr il '3aram mabaink w bainyy
'3am'9 3yoonk ya 3abdalla bss wtmana nbga lba3'9na w bl ayaam nt'hanaa .. watmana kl 3am ygbl yabtdii minnaa wana abtdeebkk ma7ba wnty tabeenyy …
'3ama'9t 3aainyy wglt allaa laya7rmnny mnkk ya 7bii w '3alaay w g63tn mnny.. matmana la7'9a tmr w tb3dk 3anyy ya mn ashoof b3yoonk ajml sneenyy …
HAPPY VALENTINES 7ABAAYBIII ;*******
kel senaaa o entooo b5aaair yaa a7laa readers !
JAHZEEN FOR TODAYS POST??!!
ITS A SPECIAL POST FOR ALL YOU READERS OUT THERE<3
3aam yedeed...
w senaah ydeedah...
w 7ub yedeeed....
3asaa allah yes3edkum ento o 7abaaybkm;***
i adore this song and beeen waiting soooo long to add it on this amazing post!
2hdaaa to all you people celebrating this day....
kl 3am w enta el7ub,,temer esneen w entaa el7ub 3asaa allah la yefrgna~
Enjoy!
-----------------------------------------------
PREVIOUSLY
He started to speak again
And I wished the same
For the first time in my life I wanted that
“ana…
ana abaach to be mine Meera”
---------------------------------------------------
I was sitting right next to him
Kint bjaabltena
But my eyes and thoughts were far far away....
B3eed 3an hathe el3alam....
I lost my 5 senses...
Just like that....
Those words made me loose all my feelings....
He was still looking at me...
Bas I didn’t realize that...
I was still in shock....
I didn’t realize what that breathtaking voice of his just said….
He stayed quiet and didn’t interrupt my thoughts…
It took me a while to take all this in…
He wants me to be his?
Yebani 7agaa?
Ana Meera akoon maltah?
Not for anyone else… bas 7agaa?
Bas kaif?
Kaif beyaany ana?
Kaif ana a8bal fe hatha el shay?
7asaait a rush of answers racing to the top trying to be picked
I didn’t want to pick
I dint want to think
I didn’t want to believe this was reality....
Meera’s POV now…
Mat5ayalt 3emry akoon attached to someone
And expected to love and loved in return
This in not who I am…
I’m the type of girl that backs off whenever someone gets too attached
I wasn’t the kind that could handle these things
I felt it was better this way…not to get hurt
That was my main goal
Ena I never get heartbroken or hurt by someone close to me
That was me
But this was different somehow
First I liked how he looked at me
Then I liked how I thought of him
But then I wanted to be with him
I was accepting everything from him
I gotta tell you though
I am the kind of girl that thinks a million times gabl matsawee shay
Magoolkm im soo straight
Bas I really do have limits
Ya3nii ma7eb ayeeb elramsh 7ag 3emri
I have all the doors open for me in Abu Dhabi
But I never dare going through them meny weldarb
A7term 3emry
That’s when things go wrong
You see others doing
And then you start wanting the same
You say to urself…fe shay esma logic
Enah there’s a first time for everything
No matter what the consequences are
You want to try new things
New experiences
A new way of living.
This is what happened to me
After seeing him
After remembering the past
After talking to him
And ..After experiencing new feelings towards him
I wanted to go forward with this
I wanted to keep feeling these things
I wanted to be close to him
Forever.
Back to the story
I pushed away all what was going on in my head...
And focused on one thing...
One thing that I was anxious to try...
One thing I didn’t think about a million times as usual...
One thing that was every girl’s fantasy to have...
One thing that makes you forget enah gravity exists....
It was falling in love…
He was still quiet...
My eyes caught him as he sucked in his lips …
He seemed troubled,
Worried,
Anxious.
Now I didn’t want to think
I wanted to follow my heart for the first time..
Hoping it was the right thing
What if this all goes wrong?
What if he hurts me?
What if this is all a lie?
What if nothing goes right?
Stop
No more thinking
No more what ifs
I choose him
I want to go through this
For now at least…
At last..
Silence…
I took advantage of the moment...
My hands reached for his face slowly...
It was tiny compared to his face....
I touched the lower right side of his face...
He slightly shivered as my cold hand touched his jaw line...
This was extreme for me..
This was over the top…
My heart was speeding now
I didn’t know what to do next
His eyes was burning through mine
I could feel his skin forming a slight smile
He liked this
He liked feeling this way too...
I slipped my hand from his face and locked it with my other hand and started to fiddle with it...
It was an awkward moment....
I was just about to say something....
We opened our mouths to talk ...
I closed it as soon as I saw his open...
We both laughed at what just happened....
After a few seconds we started to talk...
“hehe you go first”
“umm..la you”
I was turning red
My head dropped to the floor
“laaa laa ladies first”
He tilted his head down to look at me
I raised my head shwyh not knowing he was looking at me
My eyes caught his
I started to blush all over again
Uhhhhh stop it!
Weeeh galbii beywagf
I don’t want to get paralyzed all over again...
I sighed as I raised my head and looked the other way and smiled
I was laughing from the inside
I knew what he was doing
I could feel his gaze burning through me
I turned at looked at him
“hehe sho feech?”
“mashay”
Lafeet wayhee 3anah
7aseet I was gna burst out laughing
He knows I get annoyed when someone keeps staring at me!
I was starting to move a lot now
I played with my hair
Then started to bit my lips from nervousness
And then I crossed my legs to sit in a lady like position
I forgot about the cut
“Huh! aaa7”my voice was low but it sting so much!
“hehehe stop moving” he wrapped his arms around my arms trapping me from moving
I froze.
He tilted his head so he can see me better
“Okay?”
“Ok” I said randomly
“ahidich?”
“t’hedni”
“hahaha that’s not what I asked”
“adree”I said shyly
“Tadreen sho?”
My face turned blank
Sho eygool hatha?
I’m totally lost
Omg fashlaa!
Sho asawii now.....
“hehe… Meera ”
“labeah” I said softly and smiled
I watched as his face lightened up as I said that
“labaach galbii”his voice was sooo dreamy and manly
allah 3alaaik .....
leyaaa tekalamt ma7laaak....
nabraaat 9oootk...
tesha'3l el shoog feeny.....
I watched as his left eye winked at me...
2weeeh !
I seriously can’t talk now
Actually I don’t want too!
I could just sit here all day staring at him
Aaah a7ss Goosebumps everywhere
7atta sha3ar yambi wegaaf.....
He had a huge smirk plastered on his face now
“laish teste7een miny?”
I didn’t want to lie
I wanted to say the truth
But it was such an embarrassing question
I was forced.
“maste7ee”I managed to say after a few seconds
“walla?”He was being sarcastic
“Yeah”
I was happy I won this conversation...
Until he started talking again after a few seconds
“Ok 3eyal”I could hear the thrill rushing through his voice
“6al3eeny”
I looked into his eyes straight away...
Without thinking about it...
I looked into his eyes...
I saw warmth...
I saw joy....
I saw love.
I was on fire now
His eyes were doing this to me...
Magdedaart at7amaal 3yoonah....
They were so mesmerizing ....
Chee it’s like you’re on a roller costar
You’re heading towards this deadly deep drop
And you want to keep watching ...
But at the same time you’re too frightened about it!
That’s what was happening to me....
I wanted to keep my eyes on him....
If I could I would’ve done it all day...
But it was hard.
I dropped my gaze
“chefty” he laughed at me
I was blushing more after this
He took my hand in his and looked at me
I shivered from his touch
He felt that
“lat5afain”his voice was so warm and serene
“You trust me don’t you?”
He had the innocent look painted on his face
“haih”
“inzain bagoolich shay madam were cool now” he was so excited
“hehe gool”
I slightly moved away from him to make space between us so I could see him better
“T7eede-“he stopped and looked at me in surprise
“hehe sho? ”I didn’t know what was going on
His eyes were wide
I thought something happened
“laish troo7en b3eed?”
“Umm I just wanted a better view walla” I flashed him my pearly white teeth
“Meera com’on” he was disappointed now
He sighed and continued talking
“tebaain tza3leeni entee?”He had a sad expression on
“laa never”I was shocked
“hehe you know ente no matter what you do musta7eel az3al minch”
still smiling
I started to remember us as kids again
I remembered when we played by the shore
And by the swings
I got hit by memories from every side
Omg true
Machid ze3al miny!
He sighed again and looked my way
“T3arfeen how long I’ve waited to be this close to you again?”
“Really?”I was surprised
“hehe ..laish chee wayed metfaj2ah”
His hand reached to mine to pull me back in my old position
“mat9adgeeni?”
I nodded and smiled
I don’t know etha what he’s saying is all true
Since when o hewa chee eyfaker?
It feels weird now knowing how he feels about me
I don’t know what to expect from him
But still I should believe right?
He watched my face expressions
I wasn’t satisfied by what he was saying yet
“hmm….enzain gimmi your hand I want you to feel something”
He reached for my hand gently and placed it on his chest exactly where his heart was
“sho elsalfah hehe”
“shhh listen”
We both stayed quiet for a while
Aaah galbaaah!
Laish eydig bser3aa
Is he ok?
Its beating too fast !!
Besmella allah yefe’6a
He watched me as I started to panic
“haha choofy sho saweeti eb galbii”
“ana asawi chee?”
“ma7ad ‘3arich ya 2meerty”
I stared to blush
“3aan”
“mayest7oon”
“hehe enshalla”
He kept his eyes on me...
Like I was the only person in the world he doesn’t want to loose...
Like he never wants me to be away from him...
Like I was the drug that made him keep surviving...
I was making his heart race like that...
I was doing that to him...
This is how he feels when im close...
This is what I do to him when I close....
And that’s what he did to me....
Whenever he was close...
He made my heart speed up ....
He made me stop thinking....
He made me forget all the misery....
All the pain...
And concentrate on him...
Just him...
He just kept watching me
For the first time he just watched
Didn’t say a word
It’s like kaan ey7awel eyshab3 3yoonh miny...
It’s like kaan ey5aaf aroo7 3anaah o hewa ba3dah maresamny fe 3aglah....
O galbah....
O 5ayaalh....
Kan bas yeba ey6ale3ni...
I didn’t need to speak ....
I didn’t have to say a word....
He knew how I was feeling....
He knew whatever he was feeling I was feeling too....
After a few minutes he started to talk…
“Meera…”
I felt goosebumps every time those lips said my name
“na3aam?”
“tadreen ente mkaanich wain?”
He smiled at me now
I shook my head saying no
His hand touched his chest
“da5l galbii….entee nab’6 galbii”
“jawbeeny…”he was smiling at me now
“el galb ey3eesh bdoon nab’6ah?”
“laa”I said shyly
“kaif ey3eesh el galbi 3eyal?”
“etha kan fe nab’6”
“o entee sho?”
“hehe..”I started to giggle
This conversation was starting to make me nervous
And my answers were so funny
“hehe yalla gooleely… entee sho?”
“ana nab’6ah”
His eyes were wide now
His smile was taking all his face
“hehe o wain mekaanch?”
This was very entertaining to him
“hehe enta ta3ref”I was blushing
“laa ma3arf”he was sarcastic
“yalla you tell me”
“mabaa hehe”
He put his hand on the tip of my chin and turned me his way because I was now looking down as usual
“wain mkaanich?”He was smiling softly
Aaah ma7laat that smile
Walla it lightens up my day
I was smiling back but my eyes staring down
After a few seconds I managed to finally say it
“fe gaalbik”
Kl 3aaam wntaa ya 7abeeby ya '9yaa 3ainnyy .. yakl 3aamn jdeed ygaabl sneenyy .. mnkthr ma a7s b- innk g63tnn mnny..hanaait nafsy gabl la inta t'haneenyy ..
kl3aam wntyy 7abeebat galby w 7byy kl 3am wnty ya galby agrab l-galby .. yarwa3 hadya wahabha ldnyty raby w araag w a7la jamaaln shaafita 3ainyy ..
hal 3am bajma3 njom il lail yal '3aaly baktbah ismk mn awal 7arf litaalyy warsam baha 9oortn mafargat baaly wa7adth lk gmar laily bain kafainyy ..
wana l3yoonk worood il 7b banthrha barsm baha galby w galbk wa9awrha b7roof ismk .. bazaynha wa36rha wagool A7BK kthr mantii t7beenyy ..
fdaait galbk ya a'3la 7b y7yaabii.. yagrab l3aainy mn jfoony w ahdaabiii.. ya awal a7baab 3mry w a5ar a7baabii.. yakfeeny a7yaa il 3mr wyaak yakfeeennnyy!!!
Wana bdoonk sneeen il 3mrr mabeeha mabeeha .. mat5ayal a7ya bdnya inty mo feehaa .. banwar 7bk azaynha wa7aleehaa .. wamd jsr il '3aram mabaink w bainyy
'3am'9 3yoonk ya 3abdalla bss wtmana nbga lba3'9na w bl ayaam nt'hanaa .. watmana kl 3am ygbl yabtdii minnaa wana abtdeebkk ma7ba wnty tabeenyy …
'3ama'9t 3aainyy wglt allaa laya7rmnny mnkk ya 7bii w '3alaay w g63tn mnny.. matmana la7'9a tmr w tb3dk 3anyy ya mn ashoof b3yoonk ajml sneenyy …
Tuesday, February 9, 2010
8i9at '3araam *8*
DARLINGS!!
did you miss me???!! =p
adree adree you did!
i missed you guys too!!
sorry it took me a week to post (a)
blame it on the school not me=p
i've been trying to make this post as intresting as possible!!
3aad enshalla you like it...
this one's for u mayyoh;****
kel yoom fe school she askes mee
haa did you post?
im like laaa enshalla today(iv been saying that for the past week LOL)
tgooly enzaain just tell me sho bey9eer mafeyaa afichaa
hahahaha loootyah dream on it;p
and also to Springii 7abeebti;***
for her continuous support!
ANYWAYS guess what!?
this post is extraa extraa OMAGOSH for you readers ;p
Juicy! Juicy! Juicy!
and as you all know Valentines day is coming up!
so enshalla ethaa allah araad LOVEY DOVEY post for 7abaaayb galbii ;p
here you go!
Enjoy!
-----------------------------------
PREVIOUSLY
“7abeebtk?”
------------------------------------
Ento ma3ayh 9a7?
Did he just call be 7abeebtah?
Ma7laaat el kelma yoom 6el3at min thamah…
Ma7laaat el innocence ely fe na’6ratah…
Ma7laat’h o ma7laat ‘6a7ketah…
I just noticed how I described him…
Is this Meera talking?
It sounds so bizarre to hear me think this way
Little ms goody shoes gone bad
Is this the way I think of him?
This is just plain wrong Meera,
Back off you know this isn’t right
Remember
You
Are
Not
A
Risk
Taker.
Latet’hwreen…think before taking another step towards this..
This…
Insanity .
I’ve never felt this way…
It’s the first time my heart beats that fast when I’m close to someone
It’s the first time I’m so speechless
It’s the first time I look at a person like they’re the only ones I see
Everything’s is so new…
I actually responded pretty well to this though…
I liked feeling this way…
I liked how the hair on the back of my neck stood up when he touched me..
I liked how I couldn’t look into his eyes more than a few seconds…
I liked how he blocked my thinking passage when I felt his glare…
I liked how he knows the way I react towards his smiles…
I liked the way that just one smile from him makes me forget the reason I was upset…
It was just my thoughts that were disturbing me now…
But I couldn’t control them
I knew that now..
I was frozen in time
Speechless…
Tameet wagfa mekany a6al3a with curiosity
His eyes seemed dark …
Hidden with secrets..
I knew he was hiding something from me…
He was a few inches away…
He looked at me and sighed
It felt more like looking through me..
He tilted his head to face me
His eyes were trying to escape my gaze…
I watched him carefully as his mouth opened to say something..
I stepped forward to be closer to him
Probably not the best thing to do Meera
That’s when he closed his mouth and turned his face away for a second
I caught a glimpse of pain in his eyes…
It seemed like he tried to escape this…
He wanted to utter something
But something’s pulling him back
“3abady?”My voices was a whisper as I said his name
What does he want to tell me?
After a few seconds
I watched as his gaze dropped to the floor
I watched as he walked away…
Away from me…
Just like that…
What was that?
I know he wants to say something
Bas sho?
Is it that hard?
I was starting to get a weird feeling…
Something was coming I knew it…
I scrambled through my thoughts trying to find an explanation for what just happened
He left me here misplaced
Why would he leave me?
Why so serious all of a sudden?
I started to regret what I’ve said
But why is he making a big deal?
I thought about going after him
But that didn’t seem right to me
Tafkeerah beykoon ‘3ala6 probably
And he just seemed so
Me’6ayj...
I can’t risk that
Or can I?
I kept standing there
Alone.
I could almost hear my heartbeats from the silence of the place
I turned to look at Mahra….
She was gone…
That’s weird
Wain raa7t?
I turned back his way
3abdalla was a few steps away
I could see him fiddling with his hair
Then touching the back of his neck
It seemed like he was rubbing it
I couldn’t resist anymore
I had to know what was bothering his that much he would walk out on me
Just like that…
I started walking towards him..
Though now he was closer to the house…
Something inside me really wanted to know what he wanted to say
Madree laish galbii kaan magboo’6
7asaait enaah fe shay
Kint lazem a3refah
As I started to get closer to him all these thoughts rushed to my head
Should I ask?
A5aaf he’ll get all upset again
Probably I should just let it go
If he wanted to tell me he would have
I don’t have to force him..
Bas yemkin meste7i eywajehni?
If I ask akeed he’ll tell me
3abdalla doesn’t hide anything from me mub 9a7?
Flashback
I was sitting 3al swing fe bait yadooh
It was around noon
I saw 3abdalla standing close to the outside house gate
He was talking to someone
But I wasn’t able to recognize the other face
His body was slightly bigger than 3abdalla’s body
I assumed he was a bit older than him
It seemed like they were arguing
I kept on watching
After a few minutes I see 3abdalla walking toward me
And I saw the other persons back leaving the property
He came and sat on the grass close to me as I sat on the still swing
His face seemed troubled for some reason
I study his facial expressions
My face was tilted on one side
He looked up at me with his innocent eyes
“Why are you looking at me that way?”
“Me first” I smiled at him
“Who was that?”
“My cousin”
“What does he want?”
“haha yal shaai6ana it’s my turn”
“hehe fine”
I saw a look of confusion in his eyes for a second
He noticed I was looking
The look vanished before I knew it
Now all I could see is his perfect smile
I got up from the swing and sat in front of him on the grass
He just opened his mouth to talk
“la-“
“Too late 5ale9at el minute”I gave him my evil smile
“hahaa laaaa”
He covered his eyes with his hand
he knew this was one of my favorite games...
“sho kaan eyreed your cousin?”
“Ok ok bagoolch bas mub now”
I sighed
“You know I don’t hide anything from you”
I thought about it for a second
“hehe yeah”
Back to reality
He trusts me..
He tells me everything….
He wouldn’t hide a single thing from me…
No matter what…
I sighed and started to increase my pace
As I walked I wasn’t looking forward at all
My thoughts were literally blocking my head by now
My eyes were down watching my feet hopping not to trip over something
The sand wasn’t balanced
There were rocks here and their
I was having difficulties walking in the sand madree laish
I was closer now to 3abdalla
Before I knew it
I was on the floor
Yes
I tripped.
I didn’t react to the fall
Mastaw3abt ely 9aar
I got up and cleaned my hand from the sand
Suddenly 7aseet shay burning !!
It was a sharp sting!
“AAAAAAAAY”I screamed so loudly
Ely mayesma3 would’ve heard that !
My knee was covered with blood
It was sooo bruised
I saw the sharp rock lying on the sand
3abdalla was by my side in a second
I couldn’t balance myself it hurt soo much
I felt his hand wrap around me for support
“aaayy....ey3awer”I could hear a sob coming out
Oh my god don’t cry in front of him
Please don’t
Too late
My tears were every where
“Meeroh Meeroh 7abeebti its ok ma9ar shay ”
His voice was soothing trying to calm me down
But my sobs were advancing by the second
Specially after hearing 7abeebti again coming from him
The pain grew more.
“hunii waaain kaanw 3yooonich?!!”
his voice seemed high
it made me cry even more
“3en-3en ”my sobs were breaking up my words
“calm down its ok it’s ok” he was rubbing his hand on my back and supporting me with the other
“3endik ”I managed to say after a few seconds
“laish 3endi?”He was smiling now
He tried to not show it
But I could hear the excitement in his voice now
I looked at him
The smile vanished straight away
He had a serious look now trying to hide the laugh that was on the way
“madreee”I started to cry again
“shhhhhh Meeroty don’t cry ”
he was able to calm me down...
i was wearing a long summer dress...
i didnt realize that it was ruined exactly where the cut on my knee was
"Laaaaa!"i cryed again
"what now?!" he was panicing now
"my dress!"i pulled it up to show him where it was all ruined and blood was all over it
"haha allah yahdeech el7een your worrying about your dress and your knee is covered with blood and you might need stiches"
i froze o tameet a6al3a o ana chee men9adma min ely ygoolah
he turned and saw my face with no expressions
his smile disappeared seeda
"i dont think the stiches are needed"he added quickly with a huge smile on his face
we walked in silence....
He held me until we reached the house and sat 3al bench by the pool
He sat right next to me
Kept his hand on my back comforting me
After a few seconds he turned my way
“laish kenti e6al3eeny?”
His eyes were burning
I couldn’t feel the pain anymore
It was worse actually
Now his gaze was burning through me.
"haha laaish mestaa7ya enzaain"he tilted his head to a side looking at me
"its just me 3abady remember"
he flashed me with his perfect straight white teeth
my face trned bright red!
i was blushing!
seriously blushing!
and he noticed i was soooooo shy!
yal fsheela!
i didnt responed to what he said
a few seconds passed....
I just realized
He’s this close...
I could hear his breath...
I could smell his scent...
ma7laat his smell....
it was chee a mixture of perfumes....
i never really liked it when people sparyed themselves with a couple of perfume bottles all at once...
bas 3aalih kil shay '3air
kil shay a7laa...
7abeet every inch of him
i liked him the way he is...
perfect and unique.
I could feel his chest hard on my arm...
I thought about fainting
Don’t you dare now!
Mub wagtaa to become a drama queen Meera
Spare your energy
You need it the most this moment
I sighed and looked at him
Waaaaaaaaaaay 3alla hal 3yooon
“I wanted to know” my voice was calm now and even
“Know what?”
i couldnt look at him anymore
not now...
I waited a second
“You never hide things from me remember” i looked down and bit my lips as I said that
“You really want to know?”His voice was closer now
“haih” I was soo shy
“Meerah”
He was way way way close by now!
I could feel his chest moving in and out
I tried to count how many times he inhaled
I lost count ,
I lost my head actually,
I wasn’t thinking.
He was looking straight ahead now
My heart was beating faster by the second
“your....still too young”
he said in a low voice
"im...im not sure if i should tell you"
after he said that i froze
i couldnt blink
i couldnt move a muscle ...
i had a feeling...
but i decided to not believe in it....
“Why not?”i was disapointed now
“You’re already a mess huni”
“Try me” I said with a brave voice
“I will bas now isn’t the right time”
He threw me a fake smile
“ok a hint?”
“hmmm its about me ”
My heart skipped a beat
He paused and looked at me
“and you....”
“what about me?”I said shyly
“giltlich not now”
I gave him my disappointed look
“haha yaa allah 3alla haal look matet’3ayar”he was laughing
He shook my body with him as he laughed
I kept on staring at him waiting for him to speak
“Ok ok il tell you ”his voice was back to serious
“Meerah…”
“na3am 3abdalla?”
My voice was shaky now
I was so scared
My hands started to shake
What was coming was really terrifying me
I was getting so anxious and impatient
Galbi kaan eydig soo fast
7aseet I was gna die
Right here
Between his arms
That was heaven for me
Just thinking of that made me settle down and relax...
Until he started to speak again...
And I wished the same...
For the first time in my life I wanted that...
“Ana...
ana abaach to be mine Meera”
maly fe hal dnya swaak ...
inta ya ajmal malaak..
inta il wa7eeed f dnyty...
w maby a3eesh ila ma3aak...~
did you miss me???!! =p
adree adree you did!
i missed you guys too!!
sorry it took me a week to post (a)
blame it on the school not me=p
i've been trying to make this post as intresting as possible!!
3aad enshalla you like it...
this one's for u mayyoh;****
kel yoom fe school she askes mee
haa did you post?
im like laaa enshalla today(iv been saying that for the past week LOL)
tgooly enzaain just tell me sho bey9eer mafeyaa afichaa
hahahaha loootyah dream on it;p
and also to Springii 7abeebti;***
for her continuous support!
ANYWAYS guess what!?
this post is extraa extraa OMAGOSH for you readers ;p
Juicy! Juicy! Juicy!
and as you all know Valentines day is coming up!
so enshalla ethaa allah araad LOVEY DOVEY post for 7abaaayb galbii ;p
here you go!
Enjoy!
-----------------------------------
PREVIOUSLY
“7abeebtk?”
------------------------------------
Ento ma3ayh 9a7?
Did he just call be 7abeebtah?
Ma7laaat el kelma yoom 6el3at min thamah…
Ma7laaat el innocence ely fe na’6ratah…
Ma7laat’h o ma7laat ‘6a7ketah…
I just noticed how I described him…
Is this Meera talking?
It sounds so bizarre to hear me think this way
Little ms goody shoes gone bad
Is this the way I think of him?
This is just plain wrong Meera,
Back off you know this isn’t right
Remember
You
Are
Not
A
Risk
Taker.
Latet’hwreen…think before taking another step towards this..
This…
Insanity .
I’ve never felt this way…
It’s the first time my heart beats that fast when I’m close to someone
It’s the first time I’m so speechless
It’s the first time I look at a person like they’re the only ones I see
Everything’s is so new…
I actually responded pretty well to this though…
I liked feeling this way…
I liked how the hair on the back of my neck stood up when he touched me..
I liked how I couldn’t look into his eyes more than a few seconds…
I liked how he blocked my thinking passage when I felt his glare…
I liked how he knows the way I react towards his smiles…
I liked the way that just one smile from him makes me forget the reason I was upset…
It was just my thoughts that were disturbing me now…
But I couldn’t control them
I knew that now..
I was frozen in time
Speechless…
Tameet wagfa mekany a6al3a with curiosity
His eyes seemed dark …
Hidden with secrets..
I knew he was hiding something from me…
He was a few inches away…
He looked at me and sighed
It felt more like looking through me..
He tilted his head to face me
His eyes were trying to escape my gaze…
I watched him carefully as his mouth opened to say something..
I stepped forward to be closer to him
Probably not the best thing to do Meera
That’s when he closed his mouth and turned his face away for a second
I caught a glimpse of pain in his eyes…
It seemed like he tried to escape this…
He wanted to utter something
But something’s pulling him back
“3abady?”My voices was a whisper as I said his name
What does he want to tell me?
After a few seconds
I watched as his gaze dropped to the floor
I watched as he walked away…
Away from me…
Just like that…
What was that?
I know he wants to say something
Bas sho?
Is it that hard?
I was starting to get a weird feeling…
Something was coming I knew it…
I scrambled through my thoughts trying to find an explanation for what just happened
He left me here misplaced
Why would he leave me?
Why so serious all of a sudden?
I started to regret what I’ve said
But why is he making a big deal?
I thought about going after him
But that didn’t seem right to me
Tafkeerah beykoon ‘3ala6 probably
And he just seemed so
Me’6ayj...
I can’t risk that
Or can I?
I kept standing there
Alone.
I could almost hear my heartbeats from the silence of the place
I turned to look at Mahra….
She was gone…
That’s weird
Wain raa7t?
I turned back his way
3abdalla was a few steps away
I could see him fiddling with his hair
Then touching the back of his neck
It seemed like he was rubbing it
I couldn’t resist anymore
I had to know what was bothering his that much he would walk out on me
Just like that…
I started walking towards him..
Though now he was closer to the house…
Something inside me really wanted to know what he wanted to say
Madree laish galbii kaan magboo’6
7asaait enaah fe shay
Kint lazem a3refah
As I started to get closer to him all these thoughts rushed to my head
Should I ask?
A5aaf he’ll get all upset again
Probably I should just let it go
If he wanted to tell me he would have
I don’t have to force him..
Bas yemkin meste7i eywajehni?
If I ask akeed he’ll tell me
3abdalla doesn’t hide anything from me mub 9a7?
Flashback
I was sitting 3al swing fe bait yadooh
It was around noon
I saw 3abdalla standing close to the outside house gate
He was talking to someone
But I wasn’t able to recognize the other face
His body was slightly bigger than 3abdalla’s body
I assumed he was a bit older than him
It seemed like they were arguing
I kept on watching
After a few minutes I see 3abdalla walking toward me
And I saw the other persons back leaving the property
He came and sat on the grass close to me as I sat on the still swing
His face seemed troubled for some reason
I study his facial expressions
My face was tilted on one side
He looked up at me with his innocent eyes
“Why are you looking at me that way?”
“Me first” I smiled at him
“Who was that?”
“My cousin”
“What does he want?”
“haha yal shaai6ana it’s my turn”
“hehe fine”
I saw a look of confusion in his eyes for a second
He noticed I was looking
The look vanished before I knew it
Now all I could see is his perfect smile
I got up from the swing and sat in front of him on the grass
He just opened his mouth to talk
“la-“
“Too late 5ale9at el minute”I gave him my evil smile
“hahaa laaaa”
He covered his eyes with his hand
he knew this was one of my favorite games...
“sho kaan eyreed your cousin?”
“Ok ok bagoolch bas mub now”
I sighed
“You know I don’t hide anything from you”
I thought about it for a second
“hehe yeah”
Back to reality
He trusts me..
He tells me everything….
He wouldn’t hide a single thing from me…
No matter what…
I sighed and started to increase my pace
As I walked I wasn’t looking forward at all
My thoughts were literally blocking my head by now
My eyes were down watching my feet hopping not to trip over something
The sand wasn’t balanced
There were rocks here and their
I was having difficulties walking in the sand madree laish
I was closer now to 3abdalla
Before I knew it
I was on the floor
Yes
I tripped.
I didn’t react to the fall
Mastaw3abt ely 9aar
I got up and cleaned my hand from the sand
Suddenly 7aseet shay burning !!
It was a sharp sting!
“AAAAAAAAY”I screamed so loudly
Ely mayesma3 would’ve heard that !
My knee was covered with blood
It was sooo bruised
I saw the sharp rock lying on the sand
3abdalla was by my side in a second
I couldn’t balance myself it hurt soo much
I felt his hand wrap around me for support
“aaayy....ey3awer”I could hear a sob coming out
Oh my god don’t cry in front of him
Please don’t
Too late
My tears were every where
“Meeroh Meeroh 7abeebti its ok ma9ar shay ”
His voice was soothing trying to calm me down
But my sobs were advancing by the second
Specially after hearing 7abeebti again coming from him
The pain grew more.
“hunii waaain kaanw 3yooonich?!!”
his voice seemed high
it made me cry even more
“3en-3en ”my sobs were breaking up my words
“calm down its ok it’s ok” he was rubbing his hand on my back and supporting me with the other
“3endik ”I managed to say after a few seconds
“laish 3endi?”He was smiling now
He tried to not show it
But I could hear the excitement in his voice now
I looked at him
The smile vanished straight away
He had a serious look now trying to hide the laugh that was on the way
“madreee”I started to cry again
“shhhhhh Meeroty don’t cry ”
he was able to calm me down...
i was wearing a long summer dress...
i didnt realize that it was ruined exactly where the cut on my knee was
"Laaaaa!"i cryed again
"what now?!" he was panicing now
"my dress!"i pulled it up to show him where it was all ruined and blood was all over it
"haha allah yahdeech el7een your worrying about your dress and your knee is covered with blood and you might need stiches"
i froze o tameet a6al3a o ana chee men9adma min ely ygoolah
he turned and saw my face with no expressions
his smile disappeared seeda
"i dont think the stiches are needed"he added quickly with a huge smile on his face
we walked in silence....
He held me until we reached the house and sat 3al bench by the pool
He sat right next to me
Kept his hand on my back comforting me
After a few seconds he turned my way
“laish kenti e6al3eeny?”
His eyes were burning
I couldn’t feel the pain anymore
It was worse actually
Now his gaze was burning through me.
"haha laaish mestaa7ya enzaain"he tilted his head to a side looking at me
"its just me 3abady remember"
he flashed me with his perfect straight white teeth
my face trned bright red!
i was blushing!
seriously blushing!
and he noticed i was soooooo shy!
yal fsheela!
i didnt responed to what he said
a few seconds passed....
I just realized
He’s this close...
I could hear his breath...
I could smell his scent...
ma7laat his smell....
it was chee a mixture of perfumes....
i never really liked it when people sparyed themselves with a couple of perfume bottles all at once...
bas 3aalih kil shay '3air
kil shay a7laa...
7abeet every inch of him
i liked him the way he is...
perfect and unique.
I could feel his chest hard on my arm...
I thought about fainting
Don’t you dare now!
Mub wagtaa to become a drama queen Meera
Spare your energy
You need it the most this moment
I sighed and looked at him
Waaaaaaaaaaay 3alla hal 3yooon
“I wanted to know” my voice was calm now and even
“Know what?”
i couldnt look at him anymore
not now...
I waited a second
“You never hide things from me remember” i looked down and bit my lips as I said that
“You really want to know?”His voice was closer now
“haih” I was soo shy
“Meerah”
He was way way way close by now!
I could feel his chest moving in and out
I tried to count how many times he inhaled
I lost count ,
I lost my head actually,
I wasn’t thinking.
He was looking straight ahead now
My heart was beating faster by the second
“your....still too young”
he said in a low voice
"im...im not sure if i should tell you"
after he said that i froze
i couldnt blink
i couldnt move a muscle ...
i had a feeling...
but i decided to not believe in it....
“Why not?”i was disapointed now
“You’re already a mess huni”
“Try me” I said with a brave voice
“I will bas now isn’t the right time”
He threw me a fake smile
“ok a hint?”
“hmmm its about me ”
My heart skipped a beat
He paused and looked at me
“and you....”
“what about me?”I said shyly
“giltlich not now”
I gave him my disappointed look
“haha yaa allah 3alla haal look matet’3ayar”he was laughing
He shook my body with him as he laughed
I kept on staring at him waiting for him to speak
“Ok ok il tell you ”his voice was back to serious
“Meerah…”
“na3am 3abdalla?”
My voice was shaky now
I was so scared
My hands started to shake
What was coming was really terrifying me
I was getting so anxious and impatient
Galbi kaan eydig soo fast
7aseet I was gna die
Right here
Between his arms
That was heaven for me
Just thinking of that made me settle down and relax...
Until he started to speak again...
And I wished the same...
For the first time in my life I wanted that...
“Ana...
ana abaach to be mine Meera”
maly fe hal dnya swaak ...
inta ya ajmal malaak..
inta il wa7eeed f dnyty...
w maby a3eesh ila ma3aak...~
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