when the whole world flips that min...
when you need someone so much...
when you need a shoulder to cry one..
when you say"im fine"and really want to hear someone saying "i know your not"
when suddenly problems started to apear at a time you actually thought things were finally going back to normal..
when suddenly something deep inside you shuts down...
when you start getting flashbacks of how things were in the past...
how he spoke to you..
how he showed how much he loved you..
how much he needed you...
how your smile lightned up his world...
when suddenly one convo can change everything...
mahee hal lailah o bas...
wenta met'3ayr 3alay...
9arelk kam lailah wenta...
enta balik mahoo lee.....
Can you please not get pissed off and talk to me well for once?i cant talk to about anything can i?
did you see the way you said it?3aib 3alaich...fe thematyah enah 3aib...
7ayati please dont leave me in such situations
etha yateeni..o rimastee 3adel min 3yooni
i did talk 3adel im just so annoyed !
nvm il handle this on my own
thanks anyways.. :)
no thank you walla
sorry ana '3al6ana i shouldnt have gotyou involved
La ana asif you still have to ask me stuff like that...i wasnt trustworthy in the past...il ttyl
baby i've forgotten the past<3
where r u..fel bait?
yeah
thanks for telling me you left min bait 3amich and serty elbait
baby comon this whole convo wasnt going great...i just forgot
please dont search for a reason to fight about
i only wished someone was there for me and understands me and tell me everything will be fine
alright..im here searching for reasons to fight yeh?walla mabagoolich shay 3iyal..do whatever you want..5ala9 youl be happy
laish che tsawi feya??
why cant you just help me thru this?!!!!! laish che t5aleeeni
ente.
walla you dont see what you write to me....wallla....you just type..and then you think i say anything bas che
im stressed out !!!!!
you want me to smile and laugh??!!!
omg,
you know what?
il shutup now
bye walla seriously
just dont talk to me
see
look how you talk to me
not like you even want me to be here
how can i not want you to be here???
bye
thanks for fucking up my mood
look how the hell you talk to me
stop it
fucking stop
it hurts
dont you feel???
mat7seen what you do to me and shit sometimes
walla you have no clue
leave me hurt
and il shutup
so i dont hurt you
bye.
you never really regret words until theyre actually said.... :)
enta min mudah o 7alik lel2asaf 9ayer '3areeb..
9aar 3ady 3endik abga..
o 3ady 3an 3ainik a'3eeb..
Sunday, November 27, 2011
8i9at '3araam*23
PREVIOUSLY
________________________
As I got into the car..I couldnt stop thinking about Khalid...
I didnt know if i was supposed to be worried about something like this..
I mean,nothing really happened...but e7saasy kan eygooly shay thany..
like I should be careful about him...
the drive only took a few minutes,,akeed ma7asaait bel wagt...time usually flies when Salami is around..
we got out of the car....6ab3an everyone stood their watching the car and taking pictures like they usually do...
_________________________
we walked around the mall
entered some stores
shopped a little
had coffee
we realized we still had time left till we leave
salami suggested to enter ski dubai
6ab3an i was up for it just for the fun of it !
minutes later....
"haa u ready?" salami said
"haha i was born ready!!"i said
"hahahaa wayed embayn min wayhch"she raised an eyebrows smiling
"umm yeah this is kinda too high for me"i said
"hahaha la 3adi its not that scary walla" she tried to look casual so i wouldnt stress out
"ok how about i sit up there in the cafe and watch you ski the first few times?"i said
"meerana yalla 3aad stop being a chicken !! walla its not so high! 7ata law 6e7ty ul crack up wallaa its gna be hilarious!!!"
"wow thanks! now im seriously gna wait foog maba anzil saweteeeli film re3eb im not used to high slopes!!"i said
"ohoooo inzain wain for me at the cafe il ski for a bit then come join you for coffee AND THEN will ski together !! sounds good?"
"yeah perfect so i can watch you show off some moves hahaha yalla go ahead enjoy and t7amly i want u to come back in one peice please!!"i said
"hahaha ya 7maraa thanks alot!see ya in a bit!"she said
i watched her for a second then headed towards the stairs to go up to the coffee shop
i ordered some hot chocolate yummmmm i really needed something warm in this freezing place!!
as i sat there and watched aother people ski
i saw a familiar face sitting on the table right across
i didnt want to seem obvious so i smiled and turned away
i might have signaled some wrong signal
two seconds later i turned my face and found someone sitting right infront of me
on the same table ba3ad
"sorry i know your first impression of me wasnt great"he smiled warmly
"umm.ye-no its ok"i said
i tried to end our convo bas it wasnt really working
well were not really having a convo
i was just getting a creepy feeling all of a sudden
"heh i dont bite u know"
"magilt shay enzain"i smiled and continued sipping my hot coco
"i'd like to be your friend"
"why...."this convo was getting weirder by the second
"because i feel we clicked"
"clicked how?this is our first face to face actual conv so...."i said with a confused look
"haha...i know i might sound so weird right now...but you'll understand one day"
"okay....im still not following...this is actually making me feel uncomfortable.."i said as i tried not to look
"like i said...let me be your friend...im not asking for much...its either a yes...or a no..."
i fiddled with my mug trying to think of something else...
"listen...i know how your feeling..."
i looked up trying to understand every word
"let me say this before you make up your dicision....i know your not sure about what im trying to say..but try this...talk to me for a day...and you'd understand what im trying to explain...one day...etha 7asaity eni im still weird and all..you can just stop talking to me...i would understand walla...try something new...wont harm.."
"i dont know...."i still didnt understand what was asked from me
the words were not clear...ma3rf sho elsalfah wallahh..but something was pushing me forward
this wasnt right
girls were not supposed to have guy friends...it never really worked that way
it always had an obvious ending
always...
"ok khalid....il be your friend"i said with a slight smile
________________________
As I got into the car..I couldnt stop thinking about Khalid...
I didnt know if i was supposed to be worried about something like this..
I mean,nothing really happened...but e7saasy kan eygooly shay thany..
like I should be careful about him...
the drive only took a few minutes,,akeed ma7asaait bel wagt...time usually flies when Salami is around..
we got out of the car....6ab3an everyone stood their watching the car and taking pictures like they usually do...
_________________________
we walked around the mall
entered some stores
shopped a little
had coffee
we realized we still had time left till we leave
salami suggested to enter ski dubai
6ab3an i was up for it just for the fun of it !
minutes later....
"haa u ready?" salami said
"haha i was born ready!!"i said
"hahahaa wayed embayn min wayhch"she raised an eyebrows smiling
"umm yeah this is kinda too high for me"i said
"hahaha la 3adi its not that scary walla" she tried to look casual so i wouldnt stress out
"ok how about i sit up there in the cafe and watch you ski the first few times?"i said
"meerana yalla 3aad stop being a chicken !! walla its not so high! 7ata law 6e7ty ul crack up wallaa its gna be hilarious!!!"
"wow thanks! now im seriously gna wait foog maba anzil saweteeeli film re3eb im not used to high slopes!!"i said
"ohoooo inzain wain for me at the cafe il ski for a bit then come join you for coffee AND THEN will ski together !! sounds good?"
"yeah perfect so i can watch you show off some moves hahaha yalla go ahead enjoy and t7amly i want u to come back in one peice please!!"i said
"hahaha ya 7maraa thanks alot!see ya in a bit!"she said
i watched her for a second then headed towards the stairs to go up to the coffee shop
i ordered some hot chocolate yummmmm i really needed something warm in this freezing place!!
as i sat there and watched aother people ski
i saw a familiar face sitting on the table right across
i didnt want to seem obvious so i smiled and turned away
i might have signaled some wrong signal
two seconds later i turned my face and found someone sitting right infront of me
on the same table ba3ad
"sorry i know your first impression of me wasnt great"he smiled warmly
"umm.ye-no its ok"i said
i tried to end our convo bas it wasnt really working
well were not really having a convo
i was just getting a creepy feeling all of a sudden
"heh i dont bite u know"
"magilt shay enzain"i smiled and continued sipping my hot coco
"i'd like to be your friend"
"why...."this convo was getting weirder by the second
"because i feel we clicked"
"clicked how?this is our first face to face actual conv so...."i said with a confused look
"haha...i know i might sound so weird right now...but you'll understand one day"
"okay....im still not following...this is actually making me feel uncomfortable.."i said as i tried not to look
"like i said...let me be your friend...im not asking for much...its either a yes...or a no..."
i fiddled with my mug trying to think of something else...
"listen...i know how your feeling..."
i looked up trying to understand every word
"let me say this before you make up your dicision....i know your not sure about what im trying to say..but try this...talk to me for a day...and you'd understand what im trying to explain...one day...etha 7asaity eni im still weird and all..you can just stop talking to me...i would understand walla...try something new...wont harm.."
"i dont know...."i still didnt understand what was asked from me
the words were not clear...ma3rf sho elsalfah wallahh..but something was pushing me forward
this wasnt right
girls were not supposed to have guy friends...it never really worked that way
it always had an obvious ending
always...
"ok khalid....il be your friend"i said with a slight smile
Tuesday, November 1, 2011
8i9at '3araam*22
PREVIOUSLY...
________________________________
“hehe…sooo you still want to go to MOE?”she asked
“mmm why you want to change?”I asked suspiciously
“hehe well cause I know Khalid will be there”said salami
“what?laish?”i said surprised
“didn’t you notice the way he was looking at you?”she asked smiling
What did he want from me.......?
_______________________________
As I got into the car..I couldnt stop thinking about Khalid...
I didnt know if i was supposed to be worried about something like this..
I mean,nothing really happened...but e7saasy kan eygooly shay thany..
like I should be careful about him...
the drive only took a few minutes,,akeed ma7asaait bel wagt...time usually flies when Salami is around..
we got out of the car....6ab3an everyone stood their watching the car and taking pictures like they usually do...
Flashback...
calling
"en alhatf alathy 6alabt'ho mu8la8......."
calling
calling
calling
I could feel my heart racing
calling again
"en alhatf........."
this was not happening....
he will answer
he will...
calling
i could feel the pain deep inside...
it tore me into pieces...i felt shattered...
like there was no end to this pain...
tears just kept rolling down my face...
i didnt want to beleive it...
he promised...
he promised..
he promised me...
calling again...
I started hearing his voice in my heard..
I knew it.....
i smiled....
your still here...
you would never break your promise..
my breathing got harder by the second..
it felt like something was getting pulled from my heart..
seemed like my heart was ready to let go..
dont you dare leave...
dont you dare...
no matter what...you promised you'd be with me forever
forver,,,
my hands were shaking...my legs started to trembl...
the world was not the same...
something deep inside hurt...
it felt like a stab,,,into my soul
into my heart..
into every memory i cherished...
at3athab kel thanya...
roo7i tet3athb..
ma7es eb shay..
ma7es eb roo7i...
ma7es eb galbi ely kaan saken feeh...
el'3aly wain??waaink 3an galbi??
________________________________
“hehe…sooo you still want to go to MOE?”she asked
“mmm why you want to change?”I asked suspiciously
“hehe well cause I know Khalid will be there”said salami
“what?laish?”i said surprised
“didn’t you notice the way he was looking at you?”she asked smiling
What did he want from me.......?
_______________________________
As I got into the car..I couldnt stop thinking about Khalid...
I didnt know if i was supposed to be worried about something like this..
I mean,nothing really happened...but e7saasy kan eygooly shay thany..
like I should be careful about him...
the drive only took a few minutes,,akeed ma7asaait bel wagt...time usually flies when Salami is around..
we got out of the car....6ab3an everyone stood their watching the car and taking pictures like they usually do...
Flashback...
calling
"en alhatf alathy 6alabt'ho mu8la8......."
calling
calling
calling
I could feel my heart racing
calling again
"en alhatf........."
this was not happening....
he will answer
he will...
calling
i could feel the pain deep inside...
it tore me into pieces...i felt shattered...
like there was no end to this pain...
tears just kept rolling down my face...
i didnt want to beleive it...
he promised...
he promised..
he promised me...
calling again...
I started hearing his voice in my heard..
I knew it.....
i smiled....
your still here...
you would never break your promise..
my breathing got harder by the second..
it felt like something was getting pulled from my heart..
seemed like my heart was ready to let go..
dont you dare leave...
dont you dare...
no matter what...you promised you'd be with me forever
forver,,,
my hands were shaking...my legs started to trembl...
the world was not the same...
something deep inside hurt...
it felt like a stab,,,into my soul
into my heart..
into every memory i cherished...
at3athab kel thanya...
roo7i tet3athb..
ma7es eb shay..
ma7es eb roo7i...
ma7es eb galbi ely kaan saken feeh...
el'3aly wain??waaink 3an galbi??
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