Hey darlings!
how was the last post:p
i know i know it was extremely short!
but i think its a fair deal loool
a5aaf t3a9booon :p
i got a better idea...
longer posts but waiting for 2 to 3 days ....?
how bout that?
yes thats perfect=p!
so guess what....
SAT exam is in 4 DAYS!!!!
im already freaking out!
a5aaaf i do really bad
a5aaaf i forget everything i studied
a5aaaf i go blank in the test day!
should i ditch it?
i feel so not ready!
and my school math teacher so isnt helping
no practice no nothing
fa allah ey3eeeni
yallaaaa wayed 6awaaaalt
adree 7ashraa and such a drama queeeen;p
bas sho asaawi etha mashtekeet 3endkum 7ag meen ashtiki looooool
and to my new followers....
welcome!
and to my usual readers....
abaaa achooof elcomments wela baz3aal
springyyy.....
if your reading this
miss your comments!
uv completely disappeared!
a7bkum wayed readers;********
Enjoy!
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PREVIOUSLY
I kept looking at the alarm clock
It was 4:50 already
5aybaaaa time flies!
Ya rabii I need to sleep…
Mmmm sho bey9eer bacher?
Will he…..
I drifted to sleep thinking of him.....
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“a7ibich ya 2meerty”
“amoot feek”
“3umrch maraa7 tet5alaain 3any?”
“never 7abebe”
“entee njoom elsema Meera”
I could see myself blush as he wraps his arms around my waist...
We were holding hands in a beautiful place...
A place where dreams are turned into realty...
A place meant for him and me only...
abeee asraaa7 bhamsaaatk...
o na'6raaatk tethawebnyyy....
o abee ansaa bek el3aalm....
o abgaa feek mahboola....
“la tez3leen miny if I never answer you back when you call out for me”
I didn’t understand what he meant with that
“you always answer”
His smile never faded...
His eyes never left mine...
His hands never unlocked ...
I could feel the wind....
I could hear it too.....
Since when does the wind talk to me?
We3aait 3alla 9oot mama
“meme…mama yalla goomy”
“mmmm”
“yalla ya umy goomy yadich yetrayaana 7ag eryoog”
I thought I was still sleeping
“mmmmabaa aakil……..”
i wanted to see him...
i wanted to touch him...
i didnt want his face to go away...
I dreamt of him that night...
For the first time...
I see his face in my ongoing dreams...
It seemed so true being there with him I thought I was still dreaming...
“laa ya mama 3aaib yadach roo7ha galt mabakil 2leen meera tenzil….”
I could hear Noura in the background singing some Disney song
a whole new world from Aladdin I guessed
“Meme 7elw hatha elfestaan”
Noura always asked for my opinion
7abeebti she always wants my attention the most
We were somehow alike
I lifted my head from the pillow and turned to look at her
“mmmm its pretty but lebsy ely yadooh got you…”
“the blue one?”
“haaih betestaans etha chafatch labstena”
I smiled softly and got up...
Entered the bathroom and washed up...
My suitcase was already packed
(Innocent confession…I hated that…even though I knew that it was my last day of vacation..But it annoyed me more seeing the suitcase all packed and ready)
I looked through my bag
My head was all busy I couldn’t decide on what to wear
I never have trouble finding clothes but everything was packed which made it harder to decide....
I finally chose a flowy royal blue dress that was elbow length and reached above my knees and for the bottom grey leggings ...I fixed my hair, I tried putting it into a pony tail but I remembered how he liked my hair open...So I just brushed it neatly to a side...I applied my eyeliner and peach flavor lip gloss....
Noura was standing next to me eyeing me carfully
I couldn’t concentrate if someone was watching me
“mmmm want some lipgloss?”
I flashed my pearly teeth in a wide smile
“yah!”
“hehehe why didn’t you say so!”
“hehehe I want like your color!”
She was so excited 7abeebti
I made her sit on my lap so I can put it on her lips carefully
She was over excited when I was done
“look Meme now I look like you!”
“hehee katkoota”
I took one last look at myself
put on my silver ballerinas
walked down the stairs with Noura holding my hand
She was holding her dress like a princess as she walked down the stairs
I was looking at her and smiling
The house sounded crowded and full of kids laughing and screaming
I noticed the grownups sitting outside by the pool
Noura let go of my hand and joined the other kids
I walked out
“Salaam 3alikum”
“wa3alaaikm esaalam”everyone replyed
I kissed yadi and mom and my aunties
“min metaa o ne7naa netraayach Meera” yadooh said while I kissed her forehead
“hehehe sam7eeni yadooh....lazem argid zyaadh a5aar yoom taraah”
I took my seat next to my grandma
The table was full with delicious types of food
Gaimaat
M7alaa
5amfaroosh
Club sandwiches
Doughnuts
All that you desire!
“magelteelha?”my grandma was watching my mom
I looked confused
“sho tgo-“
I got interrupted by a familiar voice
“9baaa7 el5aair 3amatyah”
I froze and blushed while I noticed who it was standing a few inches away
it seemed as if i havent spent the whole night with him
dont you ever feel that way?
even though you were with the person you love for hours it feels more like minutes!
and at the end you realize that no matter how long you stay with that person...
its never enough...
you would rather live and die next to this person
well i personally agree with that....
ma3aaaak el laaail lw 6aawl
ya 7elwaah o yaa 7elw 6ooooola
rjeeeetk 5ethneee min 3aglii
rjeeeetk yalla janeeeeni
o 5aleee eldenyaa thee tadree
be2anee feek math'hoola!
But I noticed someone standing behind him...
It was a girl....
But who was she?
and why was she with him?
shooofatk 3endy teswaa kil elhadaaayaa
l2aanik '3alaaa galbii o '3ayaat munaaya
yakfeeeny enik ya 7abeeeebi ma3aayaa
ya arwaa3 hadeyaa sageha alaaah leyaa
Tuesday, April 27, 2010
Sunday, April 25, 2010
8i9at '3araam*12*
sh7laaaaaaalkm readers?!!!!!
missed ur lovely comments soooo much!
yessss finally feeee post!
ok il tell you about my new plan;p!
soooo(A)!
adreee eny i take really long to post sooo i have a way to fix that
how about posting every other day.....but
YES there is a but
looooooool that sounds funny ryt?
elmuhm thats totally off topic:p!
i was saying .....
that im gna be posting short posts from 8i9aat '3araam
but i wont be talking a long time in posting them
so...fair deal?
3ashaan matz3loon miny
a7ebkum ya a7laaaaa readers!
Enjoy!
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PREVIOUSLY
They were three easy words
I knew he was waiting to hear them
I slowly open my mouth to speak
“I…ummm ”
I watched as his eyes grew wide
“mmm I -”
_______________________________
“I……I need to go in now”
Yes…
I couldn’t say it
I was too nervous to even try…
I knew he would understand…
Everything had its own right time
No need to rush
No need to rush?
But didn’t I want to try everything…?
Didn’t I want to have experience in everything….?
I tried telling him….but my reaction was a sign
A sign to take it slow....
To understand and give time for everything
Everything happens for a reason…right?
T3awaadt 3alaaih during those past few days…
Bas mat3awadt 2baayn masha3ry
i can feel them around me....
i can feel every touch as if it was my first...
i can feel every word as if it was my last...
i enjoyed it during that moment....
when i wanted to feel the most....
Im a fast learner
I learned to love him
I learned to get close to him even though my heart skips a beat
I learned to look into his eyes and feel the love
But I didn’t know how to return his love
I didn’t know how to express my feelings the right way
he deserved more
7abeeeb galbi deserved more
and i wasnt sure i could give him ely yestahlaaa......
“yalla 7abebeti….allah weyaach…..t7amelay 3alla 3emrich ok?”
His face didn’t change its expression
He wasn’t annoyed or upset because I couldn’t say the three words
Bel3ax…
weshlooon ma'3leeek.....
wenataa elthee 3alamtny 7ubk!
That reaction made me feel a million times better
Just knowing that he is willing to wait makes me feel happy…
I smiled at him....
I realized enaah kaan yeba raa7ti…mahmaa 9aar ra7ty heya el2haam
Wela shay muhem 3endah ‘3airy…..words can wait as long as I’m satisfied and happy
He was willing to wait
“achoofch el9eb7 ya 3umry…choofy jedaamich wenty temsheen 3an la6ee7en”
"hehehe"
He had his evil smirk plastered
I knew he remembered my fall
“hehe lat7aaty”
he winked at me
ya rabiii 3alla those eyes
yethbo7ooooooon
ey5abloooooooon
ey3athboooooon
“noom el3awaafy 2meerty”
3umrk semaaa3t eb 6aair o ey7eb sejaanaa...
en chaafk entaaa nesaaa wish ta3niiii jen7ana..
anaa taraani 6aairk ely ey7ebk mooot....
en 7aab gaalbi '3airk bad3ee 3alih eymoot...
I was already half way...
I turned and he was still standing there….
waiting...
I waved goodbye and walked in the house with a wide smile on my face
I made my way up the stairs as quiet as I can
Got into my bed where Noura was laying on the other side
I couldn’t sleep
I kept looking at the alarm clock
It was 4:50 already
5aybaaaa time flies!
Ya rabii I need to sleep…
Mmmm sho bey9eer bacher?
Will he…..
I drifted to sleep thinking of him.....
missed ur lovely comments soooo much!
yessss finally feeee post!
ok il tell you about my new plan;p!
soooo(A)!
adreee eny i take really long to post sooo i have a way to fix that
how about posting every other day.....but
YES there is a but
looooooool that sounds funny ryt?
elmuhm thats totally off topic:p!
i was saying .....
that im gna be posting short posts from 8i9aat '3araam
but i wont be talking a long time in posting them
so...fair deal?
3ashaan matz3loon miny
a7ebkum ya a7laaaaa readers!
Enjoy!
______________________________
PREVIOUSLY
They were three easy words
I knew he was waiting to hear them
I slowly open my mouth to speak
“I…ummm ”
I watched as his eyes grew wide
“mmm I -”
_______________________________
“I……I need to go in now”
Yes…
I couldn’t say it
I was too nervous to even try…
I knew he would understand…
Everything had its own right time
No need to rush
No need to rush?
But didn’t I want to try everything…?
Didn’t I want to have experience in everything….?
I tried telling him….but my reaction was a sign
A sign to take it slow....
To understand and give time for everything
Everything happens for a reason…right?
T3awaadt 3alaaih during those past few days…
Bas mat3awadt 2baayn masha3ry
i can feel them around me....
i can feel every touch as if it was my first...
i can feel every word as if it was my last...
i enjoyed it during that moment....
when i wanted to feel the most....
Im a fast learner
I learned to love him
I learned to get close to him even though my heart skips a beat
I learned to look into his eyes and feel the love
But I didn’t know how to return his love
I didn’t know how to express my feelings the right way
he deserved more
7abeeeb galbi deserved more
and i wasnt sure i could give him ely yestahlaaa......
“yalla 7abebeti….allah weyaach…..t7amelay 3alla 3emrich ok?”
His face didn’t change its expression
He wasn’t annoyed or upset because I couldn’t say the three words
Bel3ax…
weshlooon ma'3leeek.....
wenataa elthee 3alamtny 7ubk!
That reaction made me feel a million times better
Just knowing that he is willing to wait makes me feel happy…
I smiled at him....
I realized enaah kaan yeba raa7ti…mahmaa 9aar ra7ty heya el2haam
Wela shay muhem 3endah ‘3airy…..words can wait as long as I’m satisfied and happy
He was willing to wait
“achoofch el9eb7 ya 3umry…choofy jedaamich wenty temsheen 3an la6ee7en”
"hehehe"
He had his evil smirk plastered
I knew he remembered my fall
“hehe lat7aaty”
he winked at me
ya rabiii 3alla those eyes
yethbo7ooooooon
ey5abloooooooon
ey3athboooooon
“noom el3awaafy 2meerty”
3umrk semaaa3t eb 6aair o ey7eb sejaanaa...
en chaafk entaaa nesaaa wish ta3niiii jen7ana..
anaa taraani 6aairk ely ey7ebk mooot....
en 7aab gaalbi '3airk bad3ee 3alih eymoot...
I was already half way...
I turned and he was still standing there….
waiting...
I waved goodbye and walked in the house with a wide smile on my face
I made my way up the stairs as quiet as I can
Got into my bed where Noura was laying on the other side
I couldn’t sleep
I kept looking at the alarm clock
It was 4:50 already
5aybaaaa time flies!
Ya rabii I need to sleep…
Mmmm sho bey9eer bacher?
Will he…..
I drifted to sleep thinking of him.....
Wednesday, March 31, 2010
8i9at '3araam*11*
Heeey ladies…..
Sho ma3eyabkm the last post?
Lol I don’t usually care how many comments I get bas after a long absence I was expecting more enthusiasm from you guys….!
Anyways…sema3too 3an a7mad bin Zayed alNhyaan?
Maskeen allaah yer7aamah….
Min eshwaay defnooh…
Btw you guysss
Ana msaafra on Friday….
So won’t be posting any time soon
2waal marjaa3 enshalla post 3alla 6oool
This post isn’t as long as the previous one but hope u enjoy it!
I’d like to clarify one important thing…
This is a REAL STORY…!
I just added my own touches to make it more interesting for the readers:)
Etha mub fahmeen shay or feel lost in the story….feel free to ask! Walla afraa7 when I get questions cause that just means ur interested in knowing more about the story and following up and I appreciate that ;)
One more thing anything in purple is me Dazzlin talking loool !
I would tell you if Meera was talking or anything so don’t worry about that part;)
Oh yah….about the tag
Sorry 7abeebtii heaven, didn’t see it before
So here you go
*The task is to write 7 things about you and tag 7 others…*
1. I love watching movies! doesn’t matter if its horror, comedy, thriller, romance, or even animation ! It’s the best way to let time pass really fast without noticing and to get your mind of things for a while ;) and for now my fav movie of the year is "My name is Khan"amazing movie
2. My blackberry smart phone<3.<3 ! For about a year now it’s been my best friend….no matter what mood I’m in the stupid broadcasts always make my day!
3. I’m the youngest child between 4:p lol ppl say u benefit a lot being in that position I say that’s bull shit-.-
4. I love Rashid elmajed<3 his songs are so passionate and real and that’s why I love’em ! fav song for now is"allah kareem"<3
5. Coke addict! I know it’s bad and madree shu but walla I can’t taste food if coke isn’t around!
6. I day dream a lot! like all the time….usually I’m always talking and talking but if I’m quiet then that means I’m day dreamin loool :p
7. Lastly … I love writing I love that it’s a way to take away all the pain….just putting it on a paper or wherever makes it better for me!i actually have a diary that my brother got for me!eygooly 2waanh keep it out of mom's sight haha shai6aan 25ooya:p
I tag 7abaaybii ;**
Springiya<3
Tutti*
Hamda:*
MareeMo
Washii
That Perfect Someone
Heaven (a)mara thanya for me
Enjoy!
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PREVIOUSLY
Mub beedy...
He makes me smile
He makes me happy
Kalaamh eyfaar7 galbi
Ey3alemny ashyaa2 makint a3arfha
Eykaberny ma3aah
Ey3ayeshni 7ubaah
Gives me hope
Gives me strength
Gives me power to keep living
For him only…..
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We lay next to each other on the sand
Looking up at the stars together
Elnejoom ely 3aberen 3an 7ubah
Elnejoom ely kel machoofhm thekartah
Thekart 9oortah
Thekart ree7tah
Thekart 9ootah
Thekart lamsetah
Thekart na’6ratah
Thekart kel shay feeh
Every time I see the stars I remember every single detail…
That night was one of my best memories
my best days
My best memories with him
And that was the start of everything
The start of my love
The start of my new beginning
He held me close that night
2eedah beedy
Ne9a7ni
Dala3ny
We3adny
We3adny enah mara7 yet5ala 3any
No matter how far or apart we get
Ana galbah el7een
And no one will ever take him away from me
We3adny enah maraa7 eychoof ‘3ary fe ‘3yabi
And I believed
I believed kel shay minah
Wesh elethee ye56er fe baalik wasaaweeh
Law 7atta fe we96 el ba7aar abneee byoot~!
I believed everything he said
I don’t know if it was because of my age
But it seemed that everything was real
Especially when it came from the most perfect person living on earth
That person that belonged to me now…
That night couldn’t get any better
But we had to separate now
I spent the longest night with him
that wasn’t enough
it was never enough.
It felt more like minutes now when I remember this
“yalla 7abeebti….”his voice sounded warm
“maba areed atim ma3aak shwy zyaada”
my hand was on his chest and held on to his t-shirt really tight
“welaa ana abaach troo7en ya galbii” he wrapped his arms around me really tight
My hands were wrapped around his neck before I knew it
he was much taller than me
but i loved that
i loved how i looked up at him
i loved how i could fit between his arms so easily
he was perfect
7abeebi was perfect
ely sekaan galbi was perfect
i said it....he was 7abeebi
he was kel shay fe 7yaati....
He didn’t want to let go
Neither did I want that
but I couldn’t be in his arms forever
I had to be strong.
I had to learn to be stronger than ever
Kent lazem at3aalm el9aber
At3aalm fargaah
And know there’s always a reward at the end
I would be in his arms once again.
“Meera”
I could feel his breath on my hair,his arms loosened up slowly
Laa please….magdar
I cant do this
Lat5aleeni
I looked into his eyes now
He tried to hide it
but I could see the pain
I could feel it all around my body
“yalla 7abeebti roo7i”
He smiled softly
When he smiles I get stronger
I get the strength from him
I relaxed straight away
I wanted to feel better
“a5aleek?”
“3umrich mara7 t5aleeny”
“tew3edny enik betzoorny?”
“aw3edch”
I looked down
“hehe 7abeebti…bu’6abi mub a5aar eldenya ”
“I know”I was still looking down
“bayeech kelyoom”
his head was tilted sideways with a huge smile on his face and winked at me
I looked up half smiling
Ma7laaat hal 3yooon
Wallla I get speechless whenever I look into his eyes
They made me dream about the future
They made me realize how lucky I am
We7yaaat e3yooonik ely 3athebaatni
We7yaaat e3yooonik ely janeeenatni
Re’3m el 3athaaab wel jenoon
Amoot fe se7eer el 3yooon!
O magdaaar a3eeesh ana bdoonk
We7yaaaat we7yaaaat e3yoonk!
“sho gelna?”
“3an sho?”
“no za3al”
“oh 9a7”I flashed him my teeth straight away
“2ywaaaa freeeeze 7abeeebti”
“heheh sho feek”
“I always want to remember you this way”
I blushed
“hehe ma7laat elmeste7aa”
I started to play with my hair and looking the other way
“yalla ta3aly baw9ilch”
he slid his fingers between mine that exact second
“laa la 3abady mafya 7ad eychoofk”
“ma7ad beychoofny lat5afeen”
“mmm”I looked back at the house then turned to him
I smiled
We started walking towards the house
Hand in hand
He looked down at me every time I was looking up at him
He knew I was too young for this
But I was older than my age
I was what he wanted....
We reached the steps
I turned his way to look at him
He grabbed my shoulders gently and kissed me on the forehead
Looked down at me
“te9be7een 3alla 5aair ya galbi”
“wenta miin 2hlaa”
“bachoofch bacher enshalla 9a7?”
“mmm enshalla..”
I remembered what tomorrow was
“yalla roo7i,il wait here 2laain machoofch daa5l elbait”
“ok..”
He knew how I was feeling
He knew I wasn’t good in goodbyes
If I had anything to say it would be now
If I had anything to do it would be now
This night was my night
Who knows when we might be alone and together ever again
Who knows?
I waited silently at the door steps thinking
What next?
Ma3eraft when to say it
Ma3eraft when to confess how I felt towards him
I didn’t know if it was too soon
I didn’t know if it’s even close to soon
I just knew I needed him
Meera’s POV now….
It was too soon…
Everything went too fast
I felt everything too fast
I experienced everything to fast
They always say you never know how much time you have left….so spend it wisely
And I did
Maybe I was too young
Maybe I rushed it
Maybe I wanted to rush it
But he was my first
And I wanted to experience everything with him for the first time
I wanted that memory to stay with me forever
That’s the truth actually
No matter how many relationships you go through after your first
You will never forget it
Because that’s when you first feel things for the first time in your life
You feel the love
You feel loved
You feel important
You feel valuable
But now….these memories stay with you
Not to compare
But to understanding and appreciate what you had
To make you stronger
To make you a better person
To understand life from a different point of view
Believe me a day will come and you’ll say to someone going through it
"I know how you feel".
and know I appreciate what i had ...
Back to reality...
He watched me carefully as I tried to talk
I was feeling the fire
I was feeling his eyes
“mmm…t7amaal 3alla 3emrik”
That sentence
That was all that could come out of my mouth
I could say more
I wanted to....
“bas at7amaal?”
It’s like he knew there was more to my words
“mmm….haih?”
I was turning red
I can feel my cheeks literally burning
“met2kdaa?”
I looked up at him
He was smiling
But it was an evil smirk
I was too obvious
He knew me too well
I opened my mouth to say those three words
The words he was waiting to hear from me
The words that meant a lot to our relationship
They were three easy words
I knew he was waiting to hear them
I tried to relax
I felt my breath getting heavier
this was really hard for me since I never tried it before
I slowly open my mouth to speak
“I…ummm ”
I watched as his eyes grew wide
“mmm I I --”
Maagilt a7ebek lajel wagtii asaleeeh....
La welethi najaa nebeeya min el7oot....
Wel 7eb law hoo ser wagdaar a5abeeh....
Ma gilt a7ebk 7ataa weshfaahe eskoot....
Sho ma3eyabkm the last post?
Lol I don’t usually care how many comments I get bas after a long absence I was expecting more enthusiasm from you guys….!
Anyways…sema3too 3an a7mad bin Zayed alNhyaan?
Maskeen allaah yer7aamah….
Min eshwaay defnooh…
Btw you guysss
Ana msaafra on Friday….
So won’t be posting any time soon
2waal marjaa3 enshalla post 3alla 6oool
This post isn’t as long as the previous one but hope u enjoy it!
I’d like to clarify one important thing…
This is a REAL STORY…!
I just added my own touches to make it more interesting for the readers:)
Etha mub fahmeen shay or feel lost in the story….feel free to ask! Walla afraa7 when I get questions cause that just means ur interested in knowing more about the story and following up and I appreciate that ;)
One more thing anything in purple is me Dazzlin talking loool !
I would tell you if Meera was talking or anything so don’t worry about that part;)
Oh yah….about the tag
Sorry 7abeebtii heaven, didn’t see it before
So here you go
*The task is to write 7 things about you and tag 7 others…*
1. I love watching movies! doesn’t matter if its horror, comedy, thriller, romance, or even animation ! It’s the best way to let time pass really fast without noticing and to get your mind of things for a while ;) and for now my fav movie of the year is "My name is Khan"amazing movie
2. My blackberry smart phone<3.<3 ! For about a year now it’s been my best friend….no matter what mood I’m in the stupid broadcasts always make my day!
3. I’m the youngest child between 4:p lol ppl say u benefit a lot being in that position I say that’s bull shit-.-
4. I love Rashid elmajed<3 his songs are so passionate and real and that’s why I love’em ! fav song for now is"allah kareem"<3
5. Coke addict! I know it’s bad and madree shu but walla I can’t taste food if coke isn’t around!
6. I day dream a lot! like all the time….usually I’m always talking and talking but if I’m quiet then that means I’m day dreamin loool :p
7. Lastly … I love writing I love that it’s a way to take away all the pain….just putting it on a paper or wherever makes it better for me!i actually have a diary that my brother got for me!eygooly 2waanh keep it out of mom's sight haha shai6aan 25ooya:p
I tag 7abaaybii ;**
Springiya<3
Tutti*
Hamda:*
MareeMo
Washii
That Perfect Someone
Heaven (a)mara thanya for me
Enjoy!
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PREVIOUSLY
Mub beedy...
He makes me smile
He makes me happy
Kalaamh eyfaar7 galbi
Ey3alemny ashyaa2 makint a3arfha
Eykaberny ma3aah
Ey3ayeshni 7ubaah
Gives me hope
Gives me strength
Gives me power to keep living
For him only…..
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We lay next to each other on the sand
Looking up at the stars together
Elnejoom ely 3aberen 3an 7ubah
Elnejoom ely kel machoofhm thekartah
Thekart 9oortah
Thekart ree7tah
Thekart 9ootah
Thekart lamsetah
Thekart na’6ratah
Thekart kel shay feeh
Every time I see the stars I remember every single detail…
That night was one of my best memories
my best days
My best memories with him
And that was the start of everything
The start of my love
The start of my new beginning
He held me close that night
2eedah beedy
Ne9a7ni
Dala3ny
We3adny
We3adny enah mara7 yet5ala 3any
No matter how far or apart we get
Ana galbah el7een
And no one will ever take him away from me
We3adny enah maraa7 eychoof ‘3ary fe ‘3yabi
And I believed
I believed kel shay minah
Wesh elethee ye56er fe baalik wasaaweeh
Law 7atta fe we96 el ba7aar abneee byoot~!
I believed everything he said
I don’t know if it was because of my age
But it seemed that everything was real
Especially when it came from the most perfect person living on earth
That person that belonged to me now…
That night couldn’t get any better
But we had to separate now
I spent the longest night with him
that wasn’t enough
it was never enough.
It felt more like minutes now when I remember this
“yalla 7abeebti….”his voice sounded warm
“maba areed atim ma3aak shwy zyaada”
my hand was on his chest and held on to his t-shirt really tight
“welaa ana abaach troo7en ya galbii” he wrapped his arms around me really tight
My hands were wrapped around his neck before I knew it
he was much taller than me
but i loved that
i loved how i looked up at him
i loved how i could fit between his arms so easily
he was perfect
7abeebi was perfect
ely sekaan galbi was perfect
i said it....he was 7abeebi
he was kel shay fe 7yaati....
He didn’t want to let go
Neither did I want that
but I couldn’t be in his arms forever
I had to be strong.
I had to learn to be stronger than ever
Kent lazem at3aalm el9aber
At3aalm fargaah
And know there’s always a reward at the end
I would be in his arms once again.
“Meera”
I could feel his breath on my hair,his arms loosened up slowly
Laa please….magdar
I cant do this
Lat5aleeni
I looked into his eyes now
He tried to hide it
but I could see the pain
I could feel it all around my body
“yalla 7abeebti roo7i”
He smiled softly
When he smiles I get stronger
I get the strength from him
I relaxed straight away
I wanted to feel better
“a5aleek?”
“3umrich mara7 t5aleeny”
“tew3edny enik betzoorny?”
“aw3edch”
I looked down
“hehe 7abeebti…bu’6abi mub a5aar eldenya ”
“I know”I was still looking down
“bayeech kelyoom”
his head was tilted sideways with a huge smile on his face and winked at me
I looked up half smiling
Ma7laaat hal 3yooon
Wallla I get speechless whenever I look into his eyes
They made me dream about the future
They made me realize how lucky I am
We7yaaat e3yooonik ely 3athebaatni
We7yaaat e3yooonik ely janeeenatni
Re’3m el 3athaaab wel jenoon
Amoot fe se7eer el 3yooon!
O magdaaar a3eeesh ana bdoonk
We7yaaaat we7yaaaat e3yoonk!
“sho gelna?”
“3an sho?”
“no za3al”
“oh 9a7”I flashed him my teeth straight away
“2ywaaaa freeeeze 7abeeebti”
“heheh sho feek”
“I always want to remember you this way”
I blushed
“hehe ma7laat elmeste7aa”
I started to play with my hair and looking the other way
“yalla ta3aly baw9ilch”
he slid his fingers between mine that exact second
“laa la 3abady mafya 7ad eychoofk”
“ma7ad beychoofny lat5afeen”
“mmm”I looked back at the house then turned to him
I smiled
We started walking towards the house
Hand in hand
He looked down at me every time I was looking up at him
He knew I was too young for this
But I was older than my age
I was what he wanted....
We reached the steps
I turned his way to look at him
He grabbed my shoulders gently and kissed me on the forehead
Looked down at me
“te9be7een 3alla 5aair ya galbi”
“wenta miin 2hlaa”
“bachoofch bacher enshalla 9a7?”
“mmm enshalla..”
I remembered what tomorrow was
“yalla roo7i,il wait here 2laain machoofch daa5l elbait”
“ok..”
He knew how I was feeling
He knew I wasn’t good in goodbyes
If I had anything to say it would be now
If I had anything to do it would be now
This night was my night
Who knows when we might be alone and together ever again
Who knows?
I waited silently at the door steps thinking
What next?
Ma3eraft when to say it
Ma3eraft when to confess how I felt towards him
I didn’t know if it was too soon
I didn’t know if it’s even close to soon
I just knew I needed him
Meera’s POV now….
It was too soon…
Everything went too fast
I felt everything too fast
I experienced everything to fast
They always say you never know how much time you have left….so spend it wisely
And I did
Maybe I was too young
Maybe I rushed it
Maybe I wanted to rush it
But he was my first
And I wanted to experience everything with him for the first time
I wanted that memory to stay with me forever
That’s the truth actually
No matter how many relationships you go through after your first
You will never forget it
Because that’s when you first feel things for the first time in your life
You feel the love
You feel loved
You feel important
You feel valuable
But now….these memories stay with you
Not to compare
But to understanding and appreciate what you had
To make you stronger
To make you a better person
To understand life from a different point of view
Believe me a day will come and you’ll say to someone going through it
"I know how you feel".
and know I appreciate what i had ...
Back to reality...
He watched me carefully as I tried to talk
I was feeling the fire
I was feeling his eyes
“mmm…t7amaal 3alla 3emrik”
That sentence
That was all that could come out of my mouth
I could say more
I wanted to....
“bas at7amaal?”
It’s like he knew there was more to my words
“mmm….haih?”
I was turning red
I can feel my cheeks literally burning
“met2kdaa?”
I looked up at him
He was smiling
But it was an evil smirk
I was too obvious
He knew me too well
I opened my mouth to say those three words
The words he was waiting to hear from me
The words that meant a lot to our relationship
They were three easy words
I knew he was waiting to hear them
I tried to relax
I felt my breath getting heavier
this was really hard for me since I never tried it before
I slowly open my mouth to speak
“I…ummm ”
I watched as his eyes grew wide
“mmm I I --”
Maagilt a7ebek lajel wagtii asaleeeh....
La welethi najaa nebeeya min el7oot....
Wel 7eb law hoo ser wagdaar a5abeeh....
Ma gilt a7ebk 7ataa weshfaahe eskoot....
Thursday, March 18, 2010
8i9at '3araam*10*
I'm back ....;**
I missed you guys soo much
Walla its been a while
7ata ppl forgot that I'm writing a story lol
ppl come up to me talking about other stories.....and then they go like oooooh what happened to your story?!
lol that wont happen again.....I hope
I know your used to hearing excuses from me
not any more though....
new start you guys
Take this as a promise from me....I will never give up what I enjoy for others sake
*Lesson number one*
Don’t let anyone take u for granted
No matter how nice
Or how sweet
Or how in love you are with that person
Never let that take over you
Always put yourself first
You....not anybody else
I know your all saying shoo tgool haay....
Just take it as a n9eee7a from a friend
For future purposes ;)
anyways.....
sorry I’m a bit down today
its been going on for a while
my teachers even noticed
and recently things have been going bad
But I really need to write a post for u guys
Maybe typing this down will help me a bit
Enjoy!----------------------------------------------------
Previously
“wain mkaanich?”He was smiling softly
Aaah ma7laat that smile
Walla it lightens up my day
I was smiling back but my eyes staring down
After a few seconds I managed to finally say it
“fe gaalbik”
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And this is how it went for the rest of the holiday...
He would come over to my grandpa’s house everyday
During the daytime he would come but we wouldn’t talk
We kept our distance so no one can suspect anything
We tried to take every chance we had to see each other
To talk to each other
To feel each other’s heartbeats
We would meet in the hallway to say hi every once in a while
But with my brother around
it was too hard
Mahra knew about this though
Will go into detail but not in this post
We would make plans during the daytime so we can meet
Every day during that holiday I sneaked out of the house around midnight to see him
He would be sitting in our old spot by the rocks near the beach
Every day....
He would wait for me...
He never knew when I would be able to show up
So he always waited
He wanted to spend every moment he can with me
7atta law they were a few minutes or even seconds
We knew that we didn’t have time to loose
The holiday was almost over
This was our last night
We knew we wouldn’t be able to see each other that often after this...
I won’t mention everything that happened during these couple of unbelievable nights....
Enshalla soon if you would like to know what happened I will tell you…
But for now I’ll tell you about one memory that I have to share
One miraculous memory...
One that I will never forget
One that crosses my mind every time I looked at the sea
One that I remember every night I look up to the sky
One that I see in my dreams every now and then
One that gave me hope
Hope to survive whatever was coming
To love what I was given
To enjoy every bit of it
To feel it
And to be a part of it
I was sneaking out of the house.....
It was around 2 am
I made sure everyone was sleeping before leaving the house
I was so scared someone would catch me
It was like a horror movie
And the house was literally dark
I made my way down the stairs slowly
I reached the ground floor and tiptoed slowly toward the pool door
Since it was the closest way out from the house and closer to the beach
Ya rabeeh etha chafny 7ad !
It’s so dark a7s I’m not alone !
I heard noises coming from the second floor
I freaked out
My heart literally stopped beating
My brain wasn’t functioning any more
I froze in place
Omg omg omg omg omg omg !
Omg shit !!
Mnooo hnee !
Who could be awake this time !
I didn’t know what to do
I raced out the house before anyone came down and sees me sneaking out
At the middle of the night ba3ad!
I was wearing my pink PJ's that night
They looked a bit dorky on me because they seemed like they were 2 sizes bigger than my actual size
So imagine how it looked
They were long sleeves and the pants reached knee length
Those made me look more childish
Bas I knew he liked anything on me
I ran as fast as I could
Down the steps
After few seconds my feet reached the sand
That’s when I ran faster
The sand was soft and smooth
That made it easier to run
Scary thoughts ran through my head
I tried not to think about anything but who was waiting for me a few steps away
The weather was moist that night
So that didn’t help
I was out of breath before I knew it
But now I was able to see a body sitting facing the sea shore
My heart started to race so fast I started feeling it beating inside my head which felt very annoying
Did anyone see me?
What if someone was waiting for me?
Uhhhh gosh Meera calm down….if someone saw me they would come running after me like maniacs
I imagined that thought in my head
I started to laugh at myself
I think he heard my laugh and turned that second with a huge smile on his face
I was a few steps away from him
I stopped that instant
My hair was a mess
I had no makeup of ofcoarse
But he liked it that way
He liked it when I looked natural
He liked it when I looked real
And with him I only knew the word real
I watched as his hand reached out towards me
I smiled and started walking
I sat next to him and folded my legs under me like a kid
I felt his stare burning through me
(You know when u feel that someone is staring?
And you obviously can see them staring from the side of your eye
That’s the way he was looking at me that right moment )
I didn’t turn to look at him
I knew he was waiting to see me blush
After a few seconds of silence he started to play with my hair
My heart was beating so fast
Being this close to him made me feel this way
When he touches me my thoughts float away
I couldn’t speak whenever he touched me
But he enjoyed that
He enjoyed watching me blush every time he touched me
I didn’t know why he wasn’t talking…
It was getting weirder by the second
Sho feeh?
Laish maykalimny?
Its ok…..nothing is happening
Nothing at a-
My thoughts were broken off when he finally started to talk
“sooo….”he sounded relived
“soo” I answered back straight away
I turned to face him
He was still playing with my hair
I raised an eye brow with suspicion
“mafyaa shay ” he chuckled
“hehe magilt shay”
“la 3yoonich ely galw”
“la walla…heheh o sho gaalw ba3ad?”
He was quiet for a few seconds
His eyes were on me for
Watching me carefully
“eygooln….eygooln enhm beyroo7n 3an 7abeebhm ”
My smile faded
“maba aroo7”my voice was a whisper
I didn’t want my thoughts to hear
I didn’t want to think about it
I knew I wouldn’t be happy about this
I just didn’t think it would be this hard
He heard the sadness in my voice
“2meerty el 7elwah laish za3lana”
I tried to ignore what was coming
I didn’t want to ruin our last light
I started to play with the sand
Only way to distract myself
“look at me”his voice was warm
I didn’t turn
“Meera”
“na3am”
I was still playing with the sand
“laish ma6al3eeny?”
“im thinking”
“inzain think o 6al3eeny”
“I cant”
“laish?”
I didn’t reply
I needed to think
I needed to know what will happen
I needed to know how I’ll be able to talk to him
I needed to know how I would survive this
He suddenly wrapped one hand around my back and the other under my knees
I didn’t realize what he was doing until i wasnt on the sand anymore
I started to scream
“AAAAAAAAAAH 3ABADY!”
“shhhhhhhhh lat9ar5eeeen hehehehe”he was cracking up while I was panicking
“Nazelnyyy I can walk !”
“mashaaaay hehehe”
He started to fast walk toward the water
As soon as I turned my face to see what he was smiling at I realized what he wanted to do
“Nononononono 3abady mabaaa !”my voice sounded like a child about to cry
“entee min yaaati o madasheeti el ba7aar kaaif chee you live in front of it !”
“walllaaaa badish baaas not now NOT LIKE THIS!”I was looking down at myself
“No difference ya 7elwah hehehe”
“laaa mabaaaa mabaaa mabaaa ”
He stared to tickle me
“heehehhe stop ahhahahahaha stopstop 3abaaady okok hehehee”
“hehehe 5alaa9 my tummy hurts hehehe”
“2waal shay promise me u’ll never be sad”
“hehe I promise !”
“mashay za3aaal ok!”
“okaaaaaay!”
He finally stopped
But we were already in the water
He put me down slowly
The water reached my knees
“aaaaah cold”
“bardaanh?”he sounded worried
“laa bas el maaay bared”
“ta3aaly ben6laa3 mabach tebredeen”
“laaa laa mabaa”
"tawich matebeen edisheen yal shai6ana hehehe"
"hehe abaaa atim"
“taraany bashelich”he gave me his evil smile
“2weeeeh haaa haa 6elaa3t hehe”
“hehe ta3aaly baraweech shay”
He looked down at his hand
And reached for my hand
Our hands interlocked straight away
I didn’t have to think
It happens willingly now
I don’t have to force myself to do anything with him
I couldn’t control my movements around him even if I tried
He made me this way
He controlled me
Mafee ‘3araah sekaaan roo7i 7abeebi wanaa a7ebaa
Law gaalw temanaa atmana 3umry gurbaah !
We were on the sand now
We sat next to each other still holding hands
He looked at me
But I was looking up at the sky
A lock from my hair was covering my face
His hand reached out to pull it away
Still looking at me
“tchoofeen hal nejoom?”
“haih”
“tegdereen t3edeenhm?”
“mmmm laaa”
“enzain choofy…….kel ma6ree 3alla balich”
He pointed up to the sky
“chofy foog”
“laish ya3ny?”
“3ashan 7uby lech nafs el nejoom”he smiled
“countless”
I smiled at him straight away
Mub beedy
He makes me smile
He makes me happy
Kalaamh eyfaar7 galbi
Ey3alemny ashyaa2 makint a3arfha
Eykaberny ma3aah
Ey3ayeshni 7ubaah
Gives me hope
Gives me strength
Gives me power to keep living
living for him only…..
I missed you guys soo much
Walla its been a while
7ata ppl forgot that I'm writing a story lol
ppl come up to me talking about other stories.....and then they go like oooooh what happened to your story?!
lol that wont happen again.....I hope
I know your used to hearing excuses from me
not any more though....
new start you guys
Take this as a promise from me....I will never give up what I enjoy for others sake
*Lesson number one*
Don’t let anyone take u for granted
No matter how nice
Or how sweet
Or how in love you are with that person
Never let that take over you
Always put yourself first
You....not anybody else
I know your all saying shoo tgool haay....
Just take it as a n9eee7a from a friend
For future purposes ;)
anyways.....
sorry I’m a bit down today
its been going on for a while
my teachers even noticed
and recently things have been going bad
But I really need to write a post for u guys
Maybe typing this down will help me a bit
Enjoy!----------------------------------------------------
Previously
“wain mkaanich?”He was smiling softly
Aaah ma7laat that smile
Walla it lightens up my day
I was smiling back but my eyes staring down
After a few seconds I managed to finally say it
“fe gaalbik”
--------------------------------------------------
And this is how it went for the rest of the holiday...
He would come over to my grandpa’s house everyday
During the daytime he would come but we wouldn’t talk
We kept our distance so no one can suspect anything
We tried to take every chance we had to see each other
To talk to each other
To feel each other’s heartbeats
We would meet in the hallway to say hi every once in a while
But with my brother around
it was too hard
Mahra knew about this though
Will go into detail but not in this post
We would make plans during the daytime so we can meet
Every day during that holiday I sneaked out of the house around midnight to see him
He would be sitting in our old spot by the rocks near the beach
Every day....
He would wait for me...
He never knew when I would be able to show up
So he always waited
He wanted to spend every moment he can with me
7atta law they were a few minutes or even seconds
We knew that we didn’t have time to loose
The holiday was almost over
This was our last night
We knew we wouldn’t be able to see each other that often after this...
I won’t mention everything that happened during these couple of unbelievable nights....
Enshalla soon if you would like to know what happened I will tell you…
But for now I’ll tell you about one memory that I have to share
One miraculous memory...
One that I will never forget
One that crosses my mind every time I looked at the sea
One that I remember every night I look up to the sky
One that I see in my dreams every now and then
One that gave me hope
Hope to survive whatever was coming
To love what I was given
To enjoy every bit of it
To feel it
And to be a part of it
I was sneaking out of the house.....
It was around 2 am
I made sure everyone was sleeping before leaving the house
I was so scared someone would catch me
It was like a horror movie
And the house was literally dark
I made my way down the stairs slowly
I reached the ground floor and tiptoed slowly toward the pool door
Since it was the closest way out from the house and closer to the beach
Ya rabeeh etha chafny 7ad !
It’s so dark a7s I’m not alone !
I heard noises coming from the second floor
I freaked out
My heart literally stopped beating
My brain wasn’t functioning any more
I froze in place
Omg omg omg omg omg omg !
Omg shit !!
Mnooo hnee !
Who could be awake this time !
I didn’t know what to do
I raced out the house before anyone came down and sees me sneaking out
At the middle of the night ba3ad!
I was wearing my pink PJ's that night
They looked a bit dorky on me because they seemed like they were 2 sizes bigger than my actual size
So imagine how it looked
They were long sleeves and the pants reached knee length
Those made me look more childish
Bas I knew he liked anything on me
I ran as fast as I could
Down the steps
After few seconds my feet reached the sand
That’s when I ran faster
The sand was soft and smooth
That made it easier to run
Scary thoughts ran through my head
I tried not to think about anything but who was waiting for me a few steps away
The weather was moist that night
So that didn’t help
I was out of breath before I knew it
But now I was able to see a body sitting facing the sea shore
My heart started to race so fast I started feeling it beating inside my head which felt very annoying
Did anyone see me?
What if someone was waiting for me?
Uhhhh gosh Meera calm down….if someone saw me they would come running after me like maniacs
I imagined that thought in my head
I started to laugh at myself
I think he heard my laugh and turned that second with a huge smile on his face
I was a few steps away from him
I stopped that instant
My hair was a mess
I had no makeup of ofcoarse
But he liked it that way
He liked it when I looked natural
He liked it when I looked real
And with him I only knew the word real
I watched as his hand reached out towards me
I smiled and started walking
I sat next to him and folded my legs under me like a kid
I felt his stare burning through me
(You know when u feel that someone is staring?
And you obviously can see them staring from the side of your eye
That’s the way he was looking at me that right moment )
I didn’t turn to look at him
I knew he was waiting to see me blush
After a few seconds of silence he started to play with my hair
My heart was beating so fast
Being this close to him made me feel this way
When he touches me my thoughts float away
I couldn’t speak whenever he touched me
But he enjoyed that
He enjoyed watching me blush every time he touched me
I didn’t know why he wasn’t talking…
It was getting weirder by the second
Sho feeh?
Laish maykalimny?
Its ok…..nothing is happening
Nothing at a-
My thoughts were broken off when he finally started to talk
“sooo….”he sounded relived
“soo” I answered back straight away
I turned to face him
He was still playing with my hair
I raised an eye brow with suspicion
“mafyaa shay ” he chuckled
“hehe magilt shay”
“la 3yoonich ely galw”
“la walla…heheh o sho gaalw ba3ad?”
He was quiet for a few seconds
His eyes were on me for
Watching me carefully
“eygooln….eygooln enhm beyroo7n 3an 7abeebhm ”
My smile faded
“maba aroo7”my voice was a whisper
I didn’t want my thoughts to hear
I didn’t want to think about it
I knew I wouldn’t be happy about this
I just didn’t think it would be this hard
He heard the sadness in my voice
“2meerty el 7elwah laish za3lana”
I tried to ignore what was coming
I didn’t want to ruin our last light
I started to play with the sand
Only way to distract myself
“look at me”his voice was warm
I didn’t turn
“Meera”
“na3am”
I was still playing with the sand
“laish ma6al3eeny?”
“im thinking”
“inzain think o 6al3eeny”
“I cant”
“laish?”
I didn’t reply
I needed to think
I needed to know what will happen
I needed to know how I’ll be able to talk to him
I needed to know how I would survive this
He suddenly wrapped one hand around my back and the other under my knees
I didn’t realize what he was doing until i wasnt on the sand anymore
I started to scream
“AAAAAAAAAAH 3ABADY!”
“shhhhhhhhh lat9ar5eeeen hehehehe”he was cracking up while I was panicking
“Nazelnyyy I can walk !”
“mashaaaay hehehe”
He started to fast walk toward the water
As soon as I turned my face to see what he was smiling at I realized what he wanted to do
“Nononononono 3abady mabaaa !”my voice sounded like a child about to cry
“entee min yaaati o madasheeti el ba7aar kaaif chee you live in front of it !”
“walllaaaa badish baaas not now NOT LIKE THIS!”I was looking down at myself
“No difference ya 7elwah hehehe”
“laaa mabaaaa mabaaa mabaaa ”
He stared to tickle me
“heehehhe stop ahhahahahaha stopstop 3abaaady okok hehehee”
“hehehe 5alaa9 my tummy hurts hehehe”
“2waal shay promise me u’ll never be sad”
“hehe I promise !”
“mashay za3aaal ok!”
“okaaaaaay!”
He finally stopped
But we were already in the water
He put me down slowly
The water reached my knees
“aaaaah cold”
“bardaanh?”he sounded worried
“laa bas el maaay bared”
“ta3aaly ben6laa3 mabach tebredeen”
“laaa laa mabaa”
"tawich matebeen edisheen yal shai6ana hehehe"
"hehe abaaa atim"
“taraany bashelich”he gave me his evil smile
“2weeeeh haaa haa 6elaa3t hehe”
“hehe ta3aaly baraweech shay”
He looked down at his hand
And reached for my hand
Our hands interlocked straight away
I didn’t have to think
It happens willingly now
I don’t have to force myself to do anything with him
I couldn’t control my movements around him even if I tried
He made me this way
He controlled me
Mafee ‘3araah sekaaan roo7i 7abeebi wanaa a7ebaa
Law gaalw temanaa atmana 3umry gurbaah !
We were on the sand now
We sat next to each other still holding hands
He looked at me
But I was looking up at the sky
A lock from my hair was covering my face
His hand reached out to pull it away
Still looking at me
“tchoofeen hal nejoom?”
“haih”
“tegdereen t3edeenhm?”
“mmmm laaa”
“enzain choofy…….kel ma6ree 3alla balich”
He pointed up to the sky
“chofy foog”
“laish ya3ny?”
“3ashan 7uby lech nafs el nejoom”he smiled
“countless”
I smiled at him straight away
Mub beedy
He makes me smile
He makes me happy
Kalaamh eyfaar7 galbi
Ey3alemny ashyaa2 makint a3arfha
Eykaberny ma3aah
Ey3ayeshni 7ubaah
Gives me hope
Gives me strength
Gives me power to keep living
living for him only…..
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