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when the whole world flips that min...

when you need someone so much...

when you need a shoulder to cry one..

when you say"im fine"and really want to hear someone saying "i know your not"

when suddenly problems started to apear at a time you actually thought things were finally going back to normal..

when suddenly something deep inside you shuts down...

when you start getting flashbacks of how things were in the past...

how he spoke to you..

how he showed how much he loved you..

how much he needed you...

how your smile lightned up his world...

when suddenly one convo can change everything...





mahee hal lailah o bas...
wenta met'3ayr 3alay...
9arelk kam lailah wenta...
enta balik mahoo lee.....



Can you please not get pissed off and talk to me well for once?i cant talk to about anything can i?

did you see the way you said it?3aib 3alaich...fe thematyah enah 3aib...

7ayati please dont leave me in such situations

etha yateeni..o rimastee 3adel min 3yooni

i did talk 3adel im just so annoyed !

nvm il handle this on my own

thanks anyways.. :)

no thank you walla

sorry ana '3al6ana i shouldnt have gotyou involved

La ana asif you still have to ask me stuff like that...i wasnt trustworthy in the past...il ttyl

baby i've forgotten the past<3

where r u..fel bait?

yeah

thanks for telling me you left min bait 3amich and serty elbait

baby comon this whole convo wasnt going great...i just forgot
please dont search for a reason to fight about
i only wished someone was there for me and understands me and tell me everything will be fine

alright..im here searching for reasons to fight yeh?walla mabagoolich shay 3iyal..do whatever you want..5ala9 youl be happy

laish che tsawi feya??

why cant you just help me thru this?!!!!! laish che t5aleeeni

ente.
walla you dont see what you write to me....wallla....you just type..and then you think i say anything bas che

im stressed out !!!!!
you want me to smile and laugh??!!!

omg,
you know what?
il shutup now
bye walla seriously
just dont talk to me

see

look how you talk to me
not like you even want me to be here

how can i not want you to be here???

bye
thanks for fucking up my mood
look how the hell you talk to me
stop it
fucking stop
it hurts
dont you feel???
mat7seen what you do to me and shit sometimes
walla you have no clue
leave me hurt
and il shutup
so i dont hurt you
bye.

you never really regret words until theyre actually said.... :)



enta min mudah o 7alik lel2asaf 9ayer '3areeb..

9aar 3ady 3endik abga..

o 3ady 3an 3ainik a'3eeb..

8i9at '3araam*23

PREVIOUSLY
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As I got into the car..I couldnt stop thinking about Khalid...


I didnt know if i was supposed to be worried about something like this..

I mean,nothing really happened...but e7saasy kan eygooly shay thany..

like I should be careful about him...

the drive only took a few minutes,,akeed ma7asaait bel wagt...time usually flies when Salami is around..

we got out of the car....6ab3an everyone stood their watching the car and taking pictures like they usually do...
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we walked around the mall

entered some stores

shopped a little

had coffee

we realized we still had time left till we leave

salami suggested to enter ski dubai

6ab3an i was up for it just for the fun of it !

minutes later....

"haa u ready?" salami said

"haha i was born ready!!"i said

"hahahaa wayed embayn min wayhch"she raised an eyebrows smiling

"umm yeah this is kinda too high for me"i said

"hahaha la 3adi its not that scary walla" she tried to look casual so i wouldnt stress out

"ok how about i sit up there in the cafe and watch you ski the first few times?"i said

"meerana yalla 3aad stop being a chicken !! walla its not so high! 7ata law 6e7ty ul crack up wallaa its gna be hilarious!!!"

"wow thanks! now im seriously gna wait foog maba anzil saweteeeli film re3eb im not used to high slopes!!"i said

"ohoooo inzain wain for me at the cafe il ski for a bit then come join you for coffee AND THEN will ski together !! sounds good?"

"yeah perfect so i can watch you show off some moves hahaha yalla go ahead enjoy and t7amly i want u to come back in one peice please!!"i said

"hahaha ya 7maraa thanks alot!see ya in a bit!"she said

i watched her for a second then headed towards the stairs to go up to the coffee shop

i ordered some hot chocolate yummmmm i really needed something warm in this freezing place!!

as i sat there and watched aother people ski

i saw a familiar face sitting on the table right across

i didnt want to seem obvious so i smiled and turned away

i might have signaled some wrong signal

two seconds later i turned my face and found someone sitting right infront of me

on the same table ba3ad

"sorry i know your first impression of me wasnt great"he smiled warmly

"umm.ye-no its ok"i said

i tried to end our convo bas it wasnt really working

well were not really having a convo

i was just getting a creepy feeling all of a sudden

"heh i dont bite u know"

"magilt shay enzain"i smiled and continued sipping my hot coco

"i'd like to be your friend"

"why...."this convo was getting weirder by the second

"because i feel we clicked"

"clicked how?this is our first face to face actual conv so...."i said with a confused look

"haha...i know i might sound so weird right now...but you'll understand one day"

"okay....im still not following...this is actually making me feel uncomfortable.."i said as i tried not to look

"like i said...let me be your friend...im not asking for much...its either a yes...or a no..."

i fiddled with my mug trying to think of something else...

"listen...i know how your feeling..."

i looked up trying to understand every word

"let me say this before you make up your dicision....i know your not sure about what im trying to say..but try this...talk to me for a day...and you'd understand what im trying to explain...one day...etha 7asaity eni im still weird and all..you can just stop talking to me...i would understand walla...try something new...wont harm.."

"i dont know...."i still didnt understand what was asked from me

the words were not clear...ma3rf sho elsalfah wallahh..but something was pushing me forward

this wasnt right

girls were not supposed to have guy friends...it never really worked that way

it always had an obvious ending

always...

















"ok khalid....il be your friend"i said with a slight smile

8i9at '3araam*22

PREVIOUSLY...
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“hehe…sooo you still want to go to MOE?”she asked
“mmm why you want to change?”I asked suspiciously


“hehe well cause I know Khalid will be there”said salami


“what?laish?”i said surprised
“didn’t you notice the way he was looking at you?”she asked smiling


What did he want from me.......?
_______________________________

As I got into the car..I couldnt stop thinking about Khalid...

I didnt know if i was supposed to be worried about something like this..

I mean,nothing really happened...but e7saasy kan eygooly shay thany..

like I should be careful about him...

the drive only took a few minutes,,akeed ma7asaait bel wagt...time usually flies when Salami is around..

we got out of the car....6ab3an everyone stood their watching the car and taking pictures like they usually do...

Flashback...

calling

"en alhatf alathy 6alabt'ho mu8la8......."

calling

calling

calling

I could feel my heart racing

calling again

"en alhatf........."

this was not happening....

he will answer

he will...

calling

i could feel the pain deep inside...
it tore me into pieces...i felt shattered...
like there was no end to this pain...
tears just kept rolling down my face...
i didnt want to beleive it...


he promised...
he promised..
he promised me...

calling again...

I started hearing his voice in my heard..
I knew it.....
i smiled....
your still here...
you would never break your promise..

my breathing got harder by the second..
it felt like something was getting pulled from my heart..
seemed like my heart was ready to let go..

dont you dare leave...
dont you dare...
no matter what...you promised you'd be with me forever
forver,,,

my hands were shaking...my legs started to trembl...
the world was not the same...
something deep inside hurt...
it felt like a stab,,,into my soul
into my heart..
into every memory i cherished...


at3athab kel thanya...
roo7i tet3athb..
ma7es eb shay..
ma7es eb roo7i...
ma7es eb galbi ely kaan saken feeh...
















el'3aly wain??waaink 3an galbi??

8i9at '3araam *21*

heeey
been a while...
sorry its not edited i just thought you wouldnt mind elmuhm i post=D!



Enjoy!

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PREVIOUSLY

He backed away fast when he heard salami’s panicked voice



I was too busy to notice anything
I didn’t realize what was happening until 3abdalla pulled me aside to be closer to Salamii and closed the fridge


thats when I saw him walking in with a smile and seemed familiar some how..

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“salaam 3alaaikm”the familiar face said while stealing glimpses back and forth at Me and 3abdalla



“wa3alikm elsalam”3abdalla said calmly


“haa balaak matrid 3alla my messages?”The familiar face said


“esmaa7ly ya weld el3aam kint mash’3ool shwy”said 3abdulla


“heh I can see that” he chuckles while looking at me


“hallaaa hallaa,,”Salami interrupted “sha5baark Khalid?”


“halla feech …walla el7emdella I’m actually great” he looks at me with a look of desire


That look frightened me….i could feel something coming..you know when you suddenly get nervous like you’ve got a test tomorrow that you forgot about and didn’t study for it? this was a million times worse


His eyes were so mysterious….So dark….his lashes were very thick ….that’s what made his eyes look more mysterious to me bas 3yoonah 7adaah che it catches your attention….his lips were perfect….5ashmah gyasaa 7elw not so big or too small…..his skin was soooooooo tanned! A nice golden darkish tan…his hair was a good length it was kinda short…he had it in a messy hair doo..kan loon sha3rah russet brown…it actually seemed a bit light for a Emirati…and he had a defined jawline….his shoulders were broad…and it showed that he exercised frequently his abs were perfectly sculptured….everything about him screamed FOREIGN !


I was gazing at him….watching every movment…I got a feeling that I knew him from somewhere…something about him was pulling me towards hi…I just wanted to know more….i don’t know why


“uhmm…entee e5t 5aloof right?”Khalid smiled


I was searching for words


But when you see someone that attractive I think its normal to be speechless


He was gorgeous I have to say


Sexy-fun-bad-boy was written all over him


I could feel 3abdalla’s eyes on me


“yes she is”3abdalla said coldly


“heh I see”said kahlid


“uhmm meera you think you can go out with me tonight?”Salami said


I switched my gaze back and forth at her and 3abdalla


“uhmm I think im going back to AD?”I smiled innocently


“hehehe no actually your not!”Salami said excitedly


“im not?”


“nopeeeee! Mama Meera has a surprise for you”she winked


“oh really?”I looked at Salami with a wicked smile


“hehehehe don’t even try I’m not saying!”


The two boys were staring at us


I could see Khalid stealing glimpses of me but when 3abdalla looks back at him he moves his gaze


I sensed that something was up between these two boys which scared me a bit but I decided to let go of my weird feelings


“how about you go….Now?”3abdalla said looking at Salami “3ashn you come home early”he looked at me and smiled


“wain sayreen?”Khalid asked curiously


“MOE!” Salami blurted out then realized she shouldn’t have told him and looked at 3abdalla with an innocent smile


“mmmhmm zain zain enjoy your time girls”Khalid said looking at 3abdalla


“take care”3abdalla said looking at both of us and motions for us to leave


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*6ooo6 6ooo6*


“yes maaam”


“Akbar….yalla bring the car”


I look at salami curiously


“ummm what just happened??”I said


“huh?what?5abaart your mum enich 6al3a ma3yah don’t worry!”she smiles innocently


“noo no I mean that guy….um Khalid?”I said


“oh that….hathaa wild 3amy Marwan”she said casually


“ohh okay….and he lives around?”I asked trying to sound normal bas I was dying to know more about this Khalid


“yeaah ….kinda close…..bas hes never around…che killa eysaafr….his mum is Spanish you know…”


“walla?that explains the color of his hair ”I said surprised


“yeah I guess…..why are you asking?”she said cautiously


“mmm la im just asking ”I smiled widly covering my obvious thoughts


“hehe enzaaain enough gossip go get ready im wait in the car”Salami says


“alright…give me 5 min!”I run up the stairs


My stuff was all unpacked


Everything was organized in the drawers and cabinet


I guessed it was my grannies actions fdaait’ha


I still have to know what going on! It seems like im staying her for a while! i wonder why…..


I changed my cloths into black leggings and a large stylish white couture top and my silver ballerinas


I put on my Chanel earrings and added some blush, mascara and pink lip-gloss


Got my bright orange miu miu purse and stashed all my stuff inside


Wore a simple black sequenced open 3abaya and ran out without getting a glimpse of how I looked


I walked out of the house and smiled when I saw the car


I walked towards the black Rolls Royce smiling


“nicee ride”I giggled


“hehe…sooo you still want to go to MOE?”she asked


“mmm why you want to change?”I asked suspiciously


“hehe well cause I know Khalid will be there”said salami


“what?laish?”i said surprised

















“didn’t you notice the way he was looking at you?”she asked smiling


What did he want from me.......?

8i9at '3araam*20*

hey readers..
missed you all
maba6wl 3alikum
and embaarken 3idkum mu8adamn 7abaaybii
el 3eedeya jahza ;)
x



Enjoy !
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PREVIOUSLY

His mouth was inches away..


i gasped....

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“garbii aba agoolch shay”his voice was a bit louder than a whisper



His eyes were gazing at me


I decided to ignore what he said







Agaarb??


Closer than this??


Is he serious!!???






Whatever he would say now wouldn’t sound any different if I moved an inch


He looked back to where Salami was sitting


She was too busy texting


She was already eating 7ataa








“garbii agoolch”I could hear excitement in his voice now


He was up to something


I looked up to read his face expression bas his face wasn’t facing me


Maybe if I get closer he would back of and let me breath..








I moved my face an inch closer to where his face was


I don’t know what I was doing bas I knew this was insane!


I have officially lost my mind!













What I heard made my heart spin and jump


What I heard made electricity run through my body


What I heard made butterflies twirl in my tummy


What I heard made me realize how special I am










“5efty?”He whispered with enjoyment


I was just going to back off because he was in the mood to fool around while I was freaked out


“laa laa bagool 5ala9 hehehe”


i loved hearing his laughter

it was full of life

“sho?”


“a7ibich moot”

he whispered a kiss


I was already on cloud 9 after that


I was mesmerized


I was living a dream


My own love story


Mine.





 



“M-meera!!”


Something was happening but I had no idea what




















 

7ubek 7ayaatii o 3umry o ajmaaal sneeenii..


Wenty methel najmeten fel koon lama3aa!!








 









Future


I love him yesterday


I love him today


I love him tomorrow


And forever always


He is a memory that will never fad


A memory that makes me move forward every single day I wake up


A7med rabii 3allaa thekretaah ely matfaregnii


‘3alatah 3endy eyzeed kel yoom


I don’t regret loving him…


I just regret what I’ve done after him..




 


 

La7’6aat wedaa3k


Ya hee 9a3baa..


Bel 7aail 9a3baa..


Ana ely abee gurbk..


Wabee galbik..


Wabeek fe denyeti..


tebga ma3i tebga..




 











back to the past…



 

He backed away fast when he heard salami’s panicked voice


I was too busy to notice anything


I didn’t realize what was happening until 3abdalla pulled me aside to be closer to Salamii and closed the fridge

thats when I saw him walking in with a smile and seemed familiar some how..

8i9at '3araam*19*

Finally babes...

sh7alkum?
wain my readers?
your still around 9a7?
taraani baz3al ethaa machift comments wella il take longer in posting;p
haha amzaa7 7abaaybi
bas i expect u all to comment
yah 7ataa ento yal silent readers;p
taraa mayemshy 3endy bas reading
lazm comment
and im pretty sure u all know how to comment 9a7
looool stwaait bossy sorry
im trying to prove something
ba5abrkm about it in the next post
bas only if u comment looool
fdaaitkm walla
twalht 3alaikm !
anyways
i had a longer part for this post
bas gilt a7saan aga9raa cz i want u to tell me what happens:p!
okaaay i want to hear your guesses!
xx


Enjoy!
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PREVIOUSLY

Then i headed to the fridge again to choose the juices


“sho t7ebeen?orange, grape, strawberry, pomegranate wela apple ?”

“uuuummmm,il take apple”

“And him?”

“Ask him yourself”

She was looking at something the other way and smiling

i knew who it was...


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ye7fe'6k raaabi 6ool el ayaaam leyaa...

o tebgaa 7abeeebii min 3yooni greebi...

laaait esneeen etkoon methlk o feyaa..

o laa ta5ethk miny o 3any te'3eebi...











I turned and saw him standing there



The sun was shining on him


Literally.

i was lost for words


He looked so handsome

walla he did

ana man3ejb fe ay 7ad

looks never mattered

bas him

he was a peice of art

a rare one too

mashalla 3alaaih jameeeeel

malaam7a '3areeba

usually all the khaleeji men had the same malaam7

dark eyes hard hair dark skin

the whole package

magool he doesnt look khaleeji

laa la he did

bas jamaalah amazing

mwa9eefa matet8aran eb 7ad

jamaalh ey3ady kel shay fe hal denya

and he was Meera's...

he was all mine..

just mine...





Kel el 3yoon ely tchooofk tewedk

yaaa 7a'6 3ain ely 3yoonk tewedaa !






A wide smile was on his face


I loved seeing his dimple it made him look so sexy!


I noticed that he went home and took a shower
His hair was messier than ever…aaaaaaah 3alla his hair...I could see the longer part of his hair still wet… his face was very hairy it was obvious he hasnt visited the barber for a while...he was wearing navy blue beach shorts with white T-shirt..his silver shades were on,and wearing black Gucci beach sandals…

He looked like an angel standing there


I didn’t notice myself staring at him until he started talking

i tryed distracting myself trying to pick a flavor

“allah allah saweetooly akel ma3aakm”

“ana masaawet shay hatha kela min eed Meera hehehe”


“adreeebch ente u9laan meta you cook”he kid around

 “hehehe sa5eeef”


i heard footsteps heading my way


I blushed as I heard him approach me


I was still standing by the fridge
i turned to face him

I had my back to the fridge and he stood infront of me peaking inside the fridge from my shoulder


“sho t7ebeen ente?”


i looked at his lips while he spoke to me

he had the most innocent face

i could still see the 10 year old kid hidden in that face

“mmm”

I turned back to look at the shelves where the juice box's were but something wasnt letting me turn all the way


I turned to search for why i couldnt turn fully and understood the reason

I would be stuck to his chest  


He noticed I couldn’t turn


“so, what’s your pick?”


i knew he liked this

i could see how his eyes enjoyed this show


“Orange”

I couldn’t look him staright in the eye

my eyes kept wondering around the room anyways

He was wearing shades


I didn’t know if his eyes were on me or not


His hand was reaching to get the container


The only way was to get it was to slid his hand closer between my left waist


His chest was getting closer


It was almost like he was hugging me


Walla galbi wagaaf


Ma3rft sho asaawi


He was tall so I couldn’t peek for help!


I could smell his scent


Dawaaa5t

walla dawaa5t

ree7taa t3aatheb

it was so refreshing





amoot feek o adree tmoot entaa feyaa..

mo7aaal '6ank fe hawana ye5eebi...



my head was facing his chest


Ya rabeeeee 3alla his chest


His head was sliding down


Closer to my face


I looked up


He was getting closer


I was paralyzed


I didn’t know what he had on mind


Bas this wasn’t the best place to do such things

i watched as his lips seprated slowly


His mouth was so close I could feel his breath on my left cheek


Omg I think he wants to kiss me!


I don’t even know how


Yal fsheeeeela !


Ok ok calm down


Calm down….












































His mouth was inches away..

i gasped....



a7lef braaabi a7ebk moot o a9oonk...
 
wa7es ana bnaab'6 gaalbik ye7lef eb raabik..

I'M BACK!!

7abaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaybe!!!!!

long time huh=p

just got back !
and im sorry eny i couldnt say goodbye to all my readers
missed you guys wayed wayed

el miahkela its summer!

and mafee internet connections fe baitna-.-

law i had some wireless around chan kan fe post kel yoom

laish kelyoom ;p i would post every hour sho teboon akthaar

mush lazm from the story:p

abaa asoolf ma3aakm wallaa
looool
i was only able to read the stories im following from my bb which was great or else i wouldve died!

this summer was great

re7naa Italy, Austria and Germany

i cant even explain how much fun i had!

got to meet most of my friends there 7emdella

and got the chance to make new friends as well

this summer has been totally different

teboon t3arfoon why??

well the main reason is....

when people ask what grade i am i get to say...

IM A SENIOR !!!

how cool is that ??

5alaaaa9 che offically old enough!

well yeah i am old bas t3arfoon nw its '3aaair*rolls eyes*
one year to go

a very stressful one thou

bas el7emdella 3alla kel shay

my grades were very good
mom is very proud el7emdella
starting very soon il be posting from 8i9at '3araam

just need to refresh my thoughts and reread it 3ashan mala5be6

so staaay around 7abaaybe

cz i might post 2night

bas blogger is starting ey5aaarf-.-

im trying to post this for the 3rd time now!!

wont be long i promise!;p

xxxx